A person choose to live and to lOve...

twice.

2012-01-27T11:48:00.000-08:00

twice of heartbreak.
put me into hell.

dont say twice, once, already feel like dead. twice, worst than dead.
i cant even describe it.

some ppl say, donnt care those not appreciate you, show them how well u live without them.
not i degil or what, once i gone into relationship, im serious to it and goin all for it. givin my everything.

twice of heartbreak, now i feel like a person without heart. no heartbeat. cant feel myself.
less social, less goin out. mostly at home. at home. and at home.
dont have the mood for anything.

i wonder, when i can feel my heartbeat once again.
when i can have someone again? and love until i cant let go anything again?
no idea. i dono.
thats my answer for every question. dono. no idea.

want to feel alive again. who can?

没放下。

2012-01-18T10:48:00.000-08:00

其实，老实说，我没能放下你的一切。
要说我傻呢，还是什么，我都不介意。

因为我进入太深了。这是没有人能理解。
只是我自己能感受得来。

实话实说，那时也是你把我带回来人生。因为你之前，我也变成像现在那样，一个人没心跳，没感觉，死了的心，不再以一切。而是你慢慢的把我的灵魂带回。

thru the days, weeks, months. im going it all by myself like a dead person.
everyday till now, i miss u like no words can describe my feeling. it is just everywhere.

im fine.................(actually, no)

2012-01-12T10:29:00.000-08:00

i've tried hard, i've try and try and try.
so i failed. i cant get back.

i am not fine, since the day. until a newer year. i...am...not...okay...
im acting fine, im acting happy, im acting im great, but all is just an act.

i just want to voice out from my mind, my ice cold dead heart.
since the day, i never been happy at all. im just a mothafucker down in mood, stressed up person.
so, dont near me, better to leave me alone, i will hurt ppl.
i use to be alone, use to the quietness, use to the quiet fone.

i feel very annoyed when ppl calling me, texting me.
no one really care me, if my family cares me, i cant feel it. sorry.
i caant feel a thing anymore.

i just want to be alone, i just want to do my thing, i just want to stop my studies. i cant take it anymore.
im goin to freak out soon. aarrgghhh!!!
i cant help myself, nor no one can help me, because i cant help myself.
pls, i cant handle anymore thing. when im down, i drink, since the day, i drunk myself. she doesnt know...
she doesnt know shes the big influence of my life, but thats too late, no longer can return, just so what she says...

anyway, life is materialistic, life is cruel. so i am.
i wont be as good as before no more. thanks for saying how shit i am, also thanks to my friend, i never shit on them, but they saying fucking shits stuff on me, thank you for helping me being jerk.

one day, one day i wana go away from this place. cut me loose. i dont want be human, im going to the darkside...
i...am...

i never will return. thanks for the cruel world. im living with this kind of condition since feb 2011. hurt, sad, depress, stress, tensed. soon, will gone mad...

I, WONDER WHY!
WHY, when a person hurt you most, and u love them still, care them still....
thats a thing, i CANT FIGURE OUT!!
PLS, give me some drug, either to kill me, or forget everything...erase everything, even more, FORGET MYSELF

以后再真心爱一个人，是浪费时间。
我已经绝心，没死心，是心死！断气！

忐忑

2012-01-09T07:52:00.000-08:00

心里有个忐忑不安的感觉。

不知为什么，就突然的。

很难受。

好像慌张，担心的感觉。可是我都没慌什么，担心什么。

是不是有什么是发生？第六感来了？

im thinkin...... are u fine?

missin

2012-01-02T05:33:00.000-08:00

missin someone, but who???
i myself also dont know who do i miss, just a feelin of a sudden.

A.L.O.N.E

2012-01-02T04:58:00.001-08:00

yea! FUCK MY LIFE. YES, FUCK IT!! FUCK SHITT!!

doin something just for the person and...

2011-12-29T00:12:00.000-08:00

well, on my last year (2010) bday. i got scolded by my parent and my brothers for not spending time with families during my bday.

the story is, i willing to sacrifise even my family just to make the day of my birthday for the person...well, her...to celebrate with me. im didnt mention that during the time, coz i dont want ppl unhappy about it and will make misunderstanding. so i just keep it my own.
im writing now in my blog just because so long didnt blog, and just want to blog out from my heart.

who will get scolded during birthday, aint good shit tho.
sigh, anyway, how stupid is it, i still sacrifise everything for love if is worth it.

no longer

2011-12-24T14:07:00.000-08:00

没在像以前那种像样

relation

2011-12-01T12:48:00.000-08:00

just like mom says, human between that have blood connection, how they quarrel, how they fight, how the fuck they scold each other and leave, they still have the blood connection. one day, they will come together.

parent and kids, brothers and sisters. BUT, not husband and wife. Not among friends.

how i treat my friends, i look up upon high to them. same to my girlfriend. (not i dont have gf)
one of my friend this year went to US to proceed his study at Fresno. yea, he's a very good friend of mine, we talk alot, in everything, by how we think how we feel. that is Bros thing.
dont mistake, thats not gay for freak ppl like u ass mind think. ;) cheerio

we spend our time along, since primary 5-6 and following by secondary f1-5 until we went college/uni. we went diff uni, but when he return back to hometown, we do lepak, hang out. or i went to kl for holiday and stay at his place. we have fun, we share every good and bad stuff. everything. we chat about girls, how pretty how hot how awesome how ugly is the chicks. we chat how we feel about the girl, that i actually like/love and the girl he like.
the girl he like, too bad he cant make his move, because he gonna go to US and few others reason. *ehem* bro, you chicken out la...hehehe

anyway, back to he's goin to US, no one company me drive up to KLIA. another friend just following me behind my car, coz he gonna go back to KL for his study. Apparently, i drive go and back my own.
early in the morning, hours before the sun comes up, i've already wake up, i forgot 4 or 5am, start my drive to KLIA, from my house to alor gajah AMJ highway to north south highway to exist 215 and lastlyl to KLIA.
dark, alone and rainy drive. all along my drive, i misses her too. i wish shes with me together company me the drive and send my friend for farewell.
my parent dont agree, not allowing me to drive, but i INSIST to. i reached KLIA, have breakfast with him and his family, then have photograph, but no tears that for sure, watch him go thru the gate and elevator.
well, i miss my friend alot, we spend time alot.
he do say 1 thing, "i go US, cant company u at malacca already, u gonna be alone, your that 'fucking' brader yea u wont find him also la."

im a scorpio, scorpio looks high upon ppl surrounding them. thats me, i look high on them, i put high hope, i do everything for them.
in the end, what do i get? oh, im not saying him... im not saying in return or payback something.

a simple word, APPRECIATE. where is it??
what i do, what i gave up just for that, what i sacrifise. in the end, i lose and they win. thaats Lose Win situation...

another, i want to put another thing, just forgot and doesnt know how to put it properly. sigh, nvm, forget bout it. that one also one of my cb friend since primary 5, together with that friend went to US, and oh, also same with that "fucking brader" i mention too. that cb and fucking, both damn cb wan la.... damn good in using ppl.
both damn good pair together, but both of them very tak ngam after f5... lol

we know, we know...
simple, just dont care lah.

and if want say about gf, same thing, no blood related. want come then come, want go then go.
but me, if i really really love and already put myheart in, i decide for the relationship, i never have doubt i should go on or not. since i've decide with you and relationship with you, i have no regret.
thats two times, the 1st very cb wan. the 2nd, im not blaming you, just, yea im not good, but try to think, what i;ve done to you taking care of you. when u need help.
dont say about my behavior my character.
well, this thing too much to say, i also will make it even wrong later on....

i've already very very very loved before. thats her, mh. now i cant feel my heart and feel myself anymore. best describe is, a dead heart and a lived dead human. if can understand.
for some ppl or some friend, they asked, hey, why u less go out already, wheres your girlfriend? or hey, why u came alone, wheres your girlfriend? my simple answer is, oh, shes busy. / oh, this time we quite busy of our studies, less have time go out have fun.... etc
biggest lie and lame reasons.

i've look at so much of girl, 1 thing is, i didnt feel anything...like...初恋的感觉！or 想爱的感觉。
all is, nothing empty inside. only night time is, i feel sore and soury in my heart when i misses her.

beer heaven

2011-11-26T23:24:00.000-08:00

i broke my rules, no drinnking before sunset, means day time...
i broke it, morning woke up, noon, night...

then last week, before MY-NPL (Malaysian National Paintball League), on thursday, after my noon class, i went down to town find my friends, they waited me at dp.
once im there, they said they at Overtime, i was like...whaaaaattt??!! 3pm something middle of afternoon weh!

on my way walk to Overtime, the Dataran Pahlawan field is preparing for the Paintball even, MY-NPL final round for this 2011 season, me and my team will be there, we gotten 4th place on the Final round, the fourth round. In 2011 season, overall we won 2nd placing. For Street Mobsters!! huaattt ahhh!!

back to story...
they already drinking, well i ordered 1 pint...free another 1...
so that noon, i took 1litre of Starker, then went back campus with them continue our class...
heck, i was a lil drunk, tutor asking me stuff, i was like...errr what????

nowadays i drink more than other year, even okay with beer, but good beer lah...
can say im social or really alcoholic already, even my mom says i really drinker dah....
because of you, im not blaming but yes because of you, i drink and drink and drink

drink

2011-11-13T09:03:00.000-08:00

this year, drink more than usual and previous and other year...

just went WCA, free tax area, drink diff type and try diff type of beer like nobody business, try some cocktails.
those cocktails price arent really that cheap...

now i really enjoy drink beers, except carlsberg, tiger and mayb heineken

7/11

2011-11-06T10:55:00.000-08:00

is just a day...

i've already decide it, im not facin it, i will stay at home, close my eye, till 8th Nov comes...
is just a day, just a day... nothing for it anymore...

1 of the day on December, i will do something...
because 1 of the day is just important to me, i cant do so much, but i try to do as little as i could.
l... y..

i wont forget and i will stay.

2011-11-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

although im weaken, but keep tryin and tryin stay up right, standing, not to fall and im not movin no where.

away

2011-11-05T21:22:00.001-07:00

next week wont be at malacca, will on air off from mlk...

Emptied.

2011-11-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

no one understand nor unable to feel at all.

just like me, i unable to feel, cant feel anything at all.

is already in stage of worst and dead. cant feel anything. worst stage of all.

just like the heart already dead or empty, heartless, no heart at all.

wana look?? is actually empty...

寂寞寂寞就好

2011-11-02T09:44:00.000-07:00

寂寞寂寞就好。习惯就好，不习惯也是要习惯。

爱车人，像我，爱车好过爱个女人。
now, car is my everything... im very sayang my car, although not perfect enough, but i still sayang her (my car). just like i love her, shes not perfect, i like her, her everything...no regrets at all...
being a fool or stupid den stupid, im fine with it...
simple, and good. but actually is complicate and madness.

慢慢的经常在家自己喝酒。

on 7th nov this year, im not lookin forward anyway, im being right person last year. but this year, not at all, mayb im gonna sleep on my bed til 8th nov just wake up as usual, go class.
yea on 7th nov is holiday, 'spend my time with family' (actually just at home), simple and super duper bored, since will super duper bored, i'll tend get very frusfrated... (well, problematic person, crazy)

dont need think so much, 7th nov, unless got so great person bring me out and party like mindfuck.
OR, mayb i go out have drive at night, speeding, tackling corner with high speed, car losses control, accident and crash to cliff or whatever then die on the spot. who knows, anything can happen...
because, in my ba zi (in mandarin) the fortune life teller, already proven, i not really have 'smooth journey' for this year, and i would get hurt, bleed, crazy plenty bleeding, might die, or get hurt or cacat or whatever...

even, got one time i went movida drinking with my paintball teammate, Street Mobsters, one of their friend at there, he can fortune tell some, but those he said, and compare as i know, is actually right and about the same. especially i said i will involve in accident and will hav major injury bleeding non stop.
he say, i should drive slow, no more fast drive speeding.
i just dono when will be, or never will happen if i drive slow or....etc etc
i've already let go everything, surrender my life to god, i dont look and take anything as very important, even i look lightly on my life and everything. i don care it anymore, want how then how lah... since this year 2011 early of the year, feb or march like that. i;ve already be like that.
exam, subject fail then fail... don care d... i also no heart to study edi...
just like a useless rubbish rotten kid...

well, born on the day, die also on the day. easy, solve everything, my parent dont need waste any money after that, selesai 1 problem caused by fked up kid (me)

静静就好。。。

2011-10-26T09:20:00.000-07:00

每天都是自己一个人静静的做自己东西，静静的去上课，一个人驾车，回家。。。
都习惯了，电话也不会响了，只在一边静悄悄的。。。

都习惯了，可是多希望那个人会text我，call我，这是我想象中的啦，也没可能的。

喝杯酒，old cognac, cordon bleu.

neck sore

2011-10-18T10:05:00.000-07:00

sigh, feels like old person, neck and shoulder feel unwell.

super sore, is already been like this for more than half a year...shitttzz

wake up from sleep, is there, during the day, is there, sleep, is still there.

worst thing is, sore-ing neck really make me cant sleep, suffering sleepless night.

pop few glass of liquor then just knock me off to bed, or pop 1 or 2 sleeping pills...not really sleeping pills, is like 镇定药...take it, will feel very calm...
best is, cough or flu med... sure come high wan...

last few month, spend rm40 for massage include dono what chinese pills...fuuukkk shyyttt, koyak~~
after a week, comes again...yea i cant stop myself drink cold...

neck sore, shoulder sore, sleepless night, if i cant sleep during the night, i will get real fucked up...
cant find any suitable pillow and bed...
and my mind not with me at all, same to my heart, just away to 1 person, thinkin bout her most of time...

oh, imagine, 8am class, u cant sit still, and u are concentrating in class, u sufferin uncomfortable neck early in the morning, turnin here and there, left right front back, den massage ur own shoulder neck...
i wonder ppl at behind will get annoyed or not...

night, i doesnt have good time this year, goin thru by my own, thank you god...i <3 u

My Happiest Moment

2011-10-17T09:39:00.000-07:00

was my happiest time of all, 2009/11/7 on my birthday, 1 of happiest day, happiest time, bahagia life...

she's the one in my life, she make it all right happen on my birthday, thats two years ago, i still can remember everything happen right in my head. feel very touching also.
she's just like the one in my life, she's affect everything in my life, cheerful, sad, and everything. Im appreciate everything what i've gone thru with her, im fortunate met her in my life too.

till...2010 her birthday, just bring her out a day for date, she just prefer something relax time, just with me during her birthday.

this is one of the potrait sunset that i love the most, well, shes inside, thats why im super liking this photo. So do her. Also one of the best photo for the day, she dress up real pretty, just for me, and im happy to look at her. i just will smile and smile in my heart when sees her.

i feel really happy seeing this photo and thought of alot of things for the day and everything we've gone thru.

< 3

2011-10-16T10:51:00.000-07:00

"翻著我們的照片　想念若隱若現"。

这一段，一直在我脑海里徘徊几天了，而且我也翻了，看了我们的照片不止几天。想了你不只几天，是算月的，天天，每个时候都‘挂’着你。

认也认了半年了，想也想念你半年了。受不了也承受着。

思念

2011-10-14T11:44:00.000-07:00

又想你了。

一闭上眼睛，看到你，脑里想起你。

我没能放下，放不下，不放下。

太重要。不舍得。

而且，习惯了每天这样。以前，不会有睡觉困难，劲像不会酸痛，没黑眼圈。

现在都有了。

只能在梦里见到你，靠近你。

我就是不会，没能，放下你。我只能呆在这里，无知的等。

this not everyone get it

2011-10-12T23:05:00.000-07:00

不是每一次都是要男生主动追求，男生也有会累的时候，他也期盼你的好感向前互动。不是每一段恋情都期待着对方对你有多好，也得看看自己的努力付出了多少，把爱放对了地方没？期待对方欣赏你的同时，也学着如何从自己的角度欣赏你的另一半。没有绝对相配的两个人，但从决定看着对方肯定的双眼决定走出下一步人生新路时，告诉自己，我会努力着，无论对方缺点／优点我该扩大我包容的尺度，容纳下他所以的该与不该。每一天疼多一点，爱多一些。永远都要记得当初我们是怎么感动着对方，相守相惜相互爱戴。

not everyone have this kind of mindset, well, i have this, im thinkin about it like that, im not simply taking any relationship, im total serious once im into the relationship, i;ve committed a very worth while and quite long in my life now, but....
forget bout that, not to story it...

i really treasure u and the time, everything, good and bad, smooth journey or bumpy roads, this is life, this is what we gonna gone thru, im fed up with bumpy road but yea, im gonna go with it no matter what, im not gonna give up love like you.

everyday, night, im thinkin bout you, every night, i was dream of you, all of my dreams just have you, now, just enough if i can stay in the dream, just more perfect and real life when i open my eyes.

all i know is, i crazily in love with you like no others thing matters to me in my life, you, you , you, just you.

thats why i dont give up, i dont put it down, i decide to hold it on no matter what, no matter i die in car crash or get murdered or last breath die in sleep.

lips skirts all round

2011-10-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

this time, before went installing, i ownself diy-ed change the front grill to the RS ver.

next, went to J Mode at cheng do my front mugen 99-00 front lips, side skirt, rx2 rear...
actually wednesday gonna settle is right away, but side skirt haven come, then thursday do, half way, they realise they lost or cant find my front mugen lips, said thursday night gonna settle for me, but til friday noon just settle...
imagine that push back, delay time, sigh, all my planning and my time...

then, today friday just went to painting, at first my father want to repaint it, so meantime i go do the skirting my own, and repaint it to new colour, but father unhappy, so stick to silver...sieeennn
also thought that, current colour got a lil fade but doesnt mind it, just wanted to spray the front lip, side and rear skirt back to silver, also side mirror, but then mati mati want whole car repaint...

whatever lah, just sent the car in today, next two week will freshly out from oven... *finger cross*
next two week, new semester start, no car to drive, if they can make it for me will be good, well, dont want hope so much, im a person giving much of hopes, after that, disappointed, crank up, unhappy...

now, lowered already, UR struts bar, front mugen lips, side skirt and rear rx2, looking great...
still have somemore in my list, exterior mods left some minor and major in quite costy...
project tho, canot say out...hehe keep secret...

wait after repaint, gonna carbonize my front mugen lips, and hopefully they will find Red H emblem for front grill and rear trunk...
modding cars, once u start, ur financial will go down super low, pocket gets big hole, then u can never stop modding...
the truth ;P hehe

rear do need something and two, a lil empty there i know....

in picture with black grill looks great, but in person, not nice at all...dilemma~~
at first i thought paint the RS grill then carbon it, once i installed it my own, i doubt it, well, after repaint whole car, i will carbonize the lips, and i will smoked something too...hehe

car is lowered, but not enough LOW, not enough stance, with current height and mugen lips, i will scrape things also... =P if i go LOw with adjustable, tyte stance, i will scrape every speed bump i went...
i also thought of doin a aluminium V-lip, something like V-lip but will cover under the front lip and a bit of lower section bumper, if scrape, just scrape the aluminium, my front lip wont get scratch.

even my mom or dad will drive my car sometime, they wont know it, parking or speed bump, parking went too front and will scrape the divider. if is so, i will be freak out by then.

after repaint, gonna solve my front suspension making sound issue, and alignment it. i doesnt know after change lowered spring needed to redo alignment.

yeap, new headlight, erm, not new, is used item and this pair of headlight does looks new, seriously, even compared to my old yellowish fogged ones. i change it also due to left side broken, i got it good deal from one of forummer @ Team Es Malaysia, cheap, as he change his to the RS type. nahh, i dont want the RS type, i gonna do something for the headlight later on. hehe, as i mentioned before, then she will looks even stunning and gorgeous with pair of sparkling crystal hot of eyes... ;)

i spend alot on this project, some by me, some with sponsored. ;P

*photo deleted*

green touch...

2011-10-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

hmm whats that?? hehe

ride improved wayyy alot, alot less body roll, can go much steady speed thru corners, even drive on straight, ride much more steady...
macam kereta beso...

PREZZY!! new package

2011-09-21T01:12:00.000-07:00

new package just arrived just now noon...

wwuueeeeee~~ happy

guess what inside??

lets open it up...hoho

excited...

RS grill for my E, gotten it from one of forummer from Malaysia Team Es
hmmm carbon it??hehe

只能想念你...

2011-09-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

only misses you everyday...
no one can understand it, just my own...
every single day, every single time, just can feel u are in my mind, my heart, think of you, missin you...

i've fall on you deeply truely...
well, i never back it up, but i just stay, i will just stay here......
u took my heart...

study, drink...

2011-09-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

yalah, so good life, drinking red wine and study...
but then im not focusing or concentrate in study at all...

i drink, just easier to sleep later...
drinnk drink drink drink, been having sleeping problem for a time already.
with drinking, or sleeping pills

this just my life...fml...

missin you <3

small Project Carbonize

2011-09-05T02:52:00.000-07:00

Purposely put the flash light...

first actually during the holiday, the front license plate dropped off, i have no idea how.
i found it after the day i pick up my car at car park, the license plate was placed on my hood, doesnt matter, mayb someone dropped it, is still in piece, i drove the car for a night without front license plate, even with police seeing me drive without front license plate... =P

nothing at all...

at nite when i return back home, i took my 1 whole meter carbon sticker, slowly cut the alphabets and numbering 1 by 1 with my own pair of hand and blade...
doin it during late night, about 2 hours i finished it off...

and just yesterday i purposely took off the rear license plate and finish off the rear plate to carbon style...
front is the success, the rear plate kinda big, got 1 part have some small bubble, nevertheless, i don care lah...
i doesnt have pair of good crafting hands, is still good that i finish it off... ;)

well, is pain in the ass cutting the alphabets and numbering 1 by 1, the measurement cutting wont be accurate, doesnt mind if it small, once paste it, i can cut it all again then will be more neat and nice...
this carbon sticker is not original 3M, lousy quality, was bought it 1meter x 1 meter for rm68, thats why so cheap, because isnt original 3M quality...
last time i spend rm50 for 3M carbon for a part small size, now i still have it...

next, gonna do the side mirror and some of the interior like for the center climate control part...

just want .........

2011-08-09T09:57:00.001-07:00

just want a person to love and being love...

just surrender with life

drinker, 酒鬼

2011-07-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

mom say about me, drinker, 酒鬼....

coz quite frequent drinking, especially go out drink...

this and that..

then, at home still have 3 bottle of beer and alot of liquor...

that 3 bottle beer, tak sanggup wana drink unless can get source if it...

now, i drink more frequent than usual, more than usual...

from a random blog i read...

2011-07-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

当年龄随着增长..

理想,梦想也变得不一样..

会不会是人长大了..

变得现实了.

明白这世界其实真的有很多做不到的事..

才会开始放弃心里的那些不实际的念头..

其实,世界上有很多东西是改变不了的..
不是每件事都能如愿以偿..
所以...我们应该选择改變自己

是这样吗..?

虽然说我们都有自己的坚持

希望自己的生活会更好

但不是每件事都是能如愿以尝..

每天努力的扮演着不同的角色..

有时真的会累..

我们似乎总在错过……

错过简单快乐的生活……

最后当你失去时，

你才发现，

原来那其实正是你想要的。

一个人的快乐，不是因为他拥有的多，而是因为他计较的少。

(from the blog owner)

(heres the comment...oh comment is important to the blog owner, so both of them is in relationship...) ;)

理想,梦想变现实了?so we 应该选择改變自己?错过简单快乐的生活?

Dreams are so good, Dreams are free (=
but lots ppl in现实life, they started to改變自己's point of view and so they 改變自己's Dream.. become lower lower and lower, and turns out starting to think of错过简单快乐的生活tat use to have before LOL..

I didnt blame those ppl about why they are thinking like these, but obviously ppl afraid of chasing their dreams simply not because of failure, is because of disappointments! And causes them start judging and suspecting their own strength and at the end of the day, they GiVe Up!!

Life might simple but happy wont last forever..
Never say 最后你才发现，原来那其实正是你想要的...meaning your life before is wad u wanted.. u still have a looooong way to go (=

a human being that live without 理想,梦想, they are living like a dead body.. the end of the day, most of them will wondering why are they living so far in life..

some day when u gonna die, u may only realize, 失去自己的理想,梦想,is the worst thing that happened in our life!!

what ever that past are past!! Don't look back!!
I may 对号入座,i may no 资格say such word here, but i wanna tell ya is, what's gonna be in future are more important than any other thing! and future depend how u react now..

自己的坚持might有时真的会累! another thing i want u to know tat YOU ARE FUCKING NOT ALONE!!! YOUR LIFE AINT JUST ABOUT ME!!! YOU YOURSELF UNDERSTAND IT EITHER!!! THEY ARE TRUE FRENS OUT THERE SINCERELY WANTED U TO BE GOOD AND THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR U EVEN WHEN U ARE DOWN!!!

LOTS OF PPL OUT THERE MIGHT WAITING FOR YOUR FAILURE AND WAITING TO STEP ON U OR LAUGH AT U! BUT PPL WHO ARE GONNA STAY AND STAND BY U, AT THAT MOMENT, THOU THEY ARE FEW, BUT THE FEW ARE ENOUGH FOR U TO LET U KNOW THEY ARE UR TRUEEEEEEEEEE FRIENDS!!!

Problems we facing now are the problems other's gonna face in future.. We step in the Reality world bit earlier than others, am not stabbing any or offending any, yet those who still under a nice comfort environment "talking" about others who fight for their life for survive on their own??LOL...

"When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.Learn from your past. Begin to live in here and now. And learn to live with each other in LOVE"

NOTHING'S GONNA 错过 (= UNLESS U STOP MOVING (=

so what u think about??
for me, i like what the comment said...hmm now my mind sudden blank, dono what to say...sigh wth ==

SoLo

2011-06-23T11:35:00.000-07:00

now, most of time, errr can be said all of the time im solo...

means, im alone all the time...

happy? u think about it...
i never want to be like that and i never will chose it either...

ppl do need a 'station'...erm i should say shoulder.....-.-

no idea what to say........
bye, never been good anyway....

been very hot tempered, very moody, up down mood, just like heavy wave...
come and goes, only my family members got my temper coz when i at home, i prefer 'untouch', mean, dont ask me to do anything. i prefer to settle down and cool down and doin nothing...
if can, i just want to talk to only somebody, but anyway no more somebody...

times will come, i know it...times will come...

it is tough to wait, super tough...i never like to wait but i need to...

anyway, 'ethanol' is the best anticeptic to me, lately been drinking alot, make myself high, easy to sleep, sleep better...
now suffering shoulder and neck sore, due to unable to sleep properly...is been some months already...
never been good, i guess thats the reason im so hot tempered, so easy got lighted off or burn off...

依依不舍...

2011-06-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

后悔for每一个东西。。。

可是现在要说的是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

自从那天上飞机，爬楼梯上飞机的时候，我往后看，依依不舍，想的是 #。
在飞机里，又在想，又睡不下，给点钱交些酒，又来罐醉自己，就得睡了两个小时罢了。。。

....

最后一天，依依不舍那边，不想回来，可是有一样东西让我要回去。。。
现在呢，我想要去那边，逃！
真的，我不想呆在这里了，我想跟我爸说，我要退学，退mmu，不想再大马了。。。
可是相对不起我爸，为了我这没用浪费钱。。。
我承认我没用。。。

ps to 你/ 其实。。。。。

hoe hoe

2011-06-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

miss all this things, especially hoegaarden, so cheap i got a carton just for...erm 60+ i think...
imported beer mah...
if the local made cooper or toohey or others...just 30-40 or 50 for a carton...
nice, everyday a beer is nice, especially at nite...

doesnt feel want to stay anymore...

2011-06-06T00:05:00.000-07:00

this time came back is because something or someone...
yea too special but then i dono...i not sure about it...

if really is okay then im staying, if not i think i will make my choice to move away from Malaysia.
i've tried a different environment, yea that for sure is not Malaysia...
just doesnt know why day by day i dont like Malaysia...

missin there, my uncle, aunty and my cousins...

UWA perhaps??

i doesnt feel want to go back my new semester today, 6/6/2011...
i just after my holiday, tested different place...
if you really missin me, i will stay.....
*abit emotional now* so will blog until here with a pic....

Burswood sunset

ninja burger

2011-05-18T23:50:00.000-07:00

this was long time ago already...
when i also lupa....

6 type of flavour, but only few can taste bit diff lah

shuriken nugget...cute eh

oh this, not from ninja burger, but damn chun bak kut teh....
crazy awesome taste, we 3 person eat, two pot of dry and soup bak kut teh, both also 2 person volume...
alot...but still nice to eat so much because is so freaking naaaiisssssss

ballons in the air...

2011-05-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

Candies...

2011-05-12T01:35:00.000-07:00

free candies, anyone?? ;P

Espresso Mochiatto

2011-05-12T01:22:00.000-07:00

this cup of coffee, from Khaki Coffee

have it with my uncle, and ehem, really small, bo syok...

new puppy in the house...

2011-05-06T10:36:00.000-07:00

Youta-chan have new haircut... make him looks cute and adorable, but i still want him to have long hair...
but is hard...~.~
he's long coat chi hua hua...

that puppy isnt mine, is the doctor lee's daughter's new puppy...
so cute, big diff when i carry both of em, of coz the new puppy is cute and active but i love Youta more, although he's lazy but he's CRAZY...
like me??hmmm....i guess so...

feel wana have the hairy puppy stay with us for few days...
Youta "small hearted" puppy, scare of the new pup....stupid~

so tupid~

vtec solenoid, stabilizer link

2011-05-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

the small thingy, vtec solenoid, cause my entire engine covered with oil...
i guess the oil leaking prob is gone for now, as that time changed the rocker valve cover gasket and oil leaking is still there, after tighten the washer, is still leak a lil...

i dont like to see the engine black black oily oily, really not nice to see...

my mech discover where the source is, changed the solenoid gasket and done....
also clean the oil stains at the block and gb a lil...

before that i wipe off few oily part and back of my palm kena lecur abit by the exhaust manifold metal cover...
now got a lil tattooed at the back of my hand...=(

stabilizer link

doesnt seems the kookk kookk sound is gone, but it handle harder and sturdier...

seems like no diff...

the sound only have when i go over some hump, sometime yes sometime no, also uneven road...

now still sourcing sport spring...

Subang burger...

2011-04-30T00:45:00.000-07:00

the double, i think is mushroom...just about rm5+ -

The Jumbo Hotdog, forgotten what flavour d...
i have this for so long already, few months back....

looks geli, but u see the double, 4 piece chicken and a piece of egg....

thats the awesomeness having this, super awesome...and 100% satisfaction

what is it look like??

2011-04-30T00:28:00.000-07:00

yeng?? funny??

50% & happy hour

2011-04-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

rarely starbucks will have this kind of promo and chance at starbucks, and nasib baik i have the chance for this as is only til 30th and only for weekdays...
only for frappucino...

i ordered black mocha, is kind of sweet, yea mocha ma...
normal price RM15.50 + RM1.80 for (additional Hazelnut/vanilla/caramel syrup) then happy hour (50% off) so 1 venti just RM8.65

cheap....
also, long time didnt drink and drink edi make my mood better.... ;)

left, mine Dark Mocha, right, JavaChip Frappucinoh~

not mine....

in the pic, behind that couch have 3 hot chicks...hehe

每一天...

2011-04-26T22:33:00.000-07:00

每一天，就过着with沉重的心情...

每一天，没笑容...

每一天，没开心过...

每一天，伤心的伤心，没心情，脑里只有一样东西...

可是我不懂还能不能，haihh，真的是不懂...

学校的assignment做不出,我觉得，有些人会说我就是酱，每次不会做...那我不懂要怎么说了...

我就是酱没用...废才！

就是废才！

这个感觉好难受，要怎么暂停呢？

i give my all...

2011-04-23T11:28:00.000-07:00

i wish i can drop or PENG to the floor right away and pengsan there till next day.......

peng there, the head hit on the floor...boooom,, then next day parent wake me up and ask, hey what u doin on the floor....

my head already koyak, koyak more or less, is still no difference, as it really koyak already...

why i let it be?? coz i give it all....

i feel worth for it, although is not worth, once i give it, i cant take it back already......

i give it....

cz i know it...

is from my true heart...

thats all...

josh is nt the josh u know already...
when the real josh is back?? i dono...
until mh there...

Moon...

2011-04-19T08:37:00.000-07:00

beautiful moon, i wish i can stare u all night long, looking at you, enjoy you and the beauty of the night...

hmm feel like playing the song and sing it, Frank Sinatra - New York, New York...

hmm, how nice if is Tokyo, Tokyo??

last night, hmm i should say before the night, after i shoot for sunset, i didnt wait for the sunset finish then off i went to swimming, i swim and swim, realise the sunset getting awesomer and awesomer....
heck, darn regret left early...

when i enjoy the sunset, i walk around, try diff angle, the sea breeze really calm me, i feel like close my eye and lying down at the beach...
the sea breeze blow all, everything that really stress me out, blow off from my mind...
hmm, now i do feel wana go to the beach again, although my house just near by beach, but that beach, is like 沙漠...dessert...
alot ppl like to go there...

i only go to pantai kundur, but kinda worry about safety as im alone, i hate to be alone...
always love to enjoy sunset with somebody...special...
hmmm the first time, hmm date? after that went to pantai kundur, sitting there chat, joke around, feel love...
okay stop the story...

after i swim for sometime, i get up check my fone, then saw the sky is dark, the other side is sea too, just beside only, then i saw thunder and something big...really BIG, and round and orange in colour...
my mind was, "errrr sunset is behind me, then this looks like sun, but heck, sunset is behind me!!"

eventually, is a moon lar, im not that stupid....
too bad, camera is in car, i just wearing swimming trunk, i wana rush to my car grab my cam but then lazy, then just jump off to the pool again...
as i didnt hav tripod too, so i cant catch the best moment...

after that, fast fast change cloth, drive back home, never eat, grab my big ass tripod go outside shoot the moon....

this the shot after i swim and somewhere beside the pool, more than a sec, can see a lil senget as i position the camera on my car...
but then before this, the moon was half and blocked by cloud and even bigger....and positioned even LOWer....

not really good angle, as at my house...
yea my lousy skill...

the moon doesnt looks what suppose....

this

this??

both also not???

i like this the most, what the moon suppose to look like...

hmm this is the part the setting play...

i...love...you... <3

死

2011-04-18T22:39:00.000-07:00

我很自私

不能看人家开心...

我一个人

没开心过

要我开心是很难

我要的东西，是很难也很简单

我只是要一个....

是我永远永远的承诺，我已经给的承诺，到现在我没放松它...

今天，梦到，梦里.........我不懂要怎么说...

一起来，就好辛苦，好辛苦，很想像女生们一哭就哭就好了...

心好辛苦，好痛苦，好疼痛....

我要怎么说？？

真的很难受....难受啊！！

起身后，开电脑，看到一些东西..........

让到我....................

能看到，平时不做的，都有做，平时不去，都去，平时没有的，都有....

我呢？平时不喝那么多，我现在喝很多，喝到不醒人事，平时不痛，现在就痛到要死，平时不去，现在就不去 / 就会要去....

每个人都不懂，不知道，只是我一个人，静静就好了。自己痛自己难受自己痛苦没人知道....

我就是这样传情......
没人知道，算了吧....

只想闭上眼睛，安息就好了.......

drink, sorrow, run, hide.........

2011-04-18T09:52:00.000-07:00

recent, i drink more than normal...

i drink alone, i drink alot...i drink at night, i cant sleep at night, every night i cant sleep, i cant close my eye, because i scare....

i scare to face it...

i just run away, i cant take it....

i just hide...

mayb i need something later on......

mayb u wont recognise who i am later on..........

coz, 我玩不起，我在逃避，我不能面对，我只能跑。。。

我放不下，我不想放...

不是的话，我...................

sunseto

2011-04-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

yea, sunset again, im sunset chaser.... ;)

since today the weather is darn blardy hot, i plan to go to check out today sunset, i hope it is good...

BUT!!

crap, not really that nice, too much cloud, i cant get big round sun....sad~
and i didnt stay until the sunset end as i want to go swimming...
when i swim, i realise the sunset getting red and orange and super awesomeness....daaamnn!!
regret again....

sunseto for the day... ;)

wait next day i put up the photo of tonight full moon...

-done-

drinks, clubs...

2011-04-16T12:26:00.000-07:00

i dont drink that frequent, but now i do....

i dont club that frequent, but now i do....

last year, i club not more than 5 times a year...yes seriously...
drink, only with parent or family or with japs fren...
if with japs fren, for that case, i will drunk, and only at home lah...

now, this year, i club more than 5 times already, and haven reach a year...
hmmm, i do hope, i do want someone....(who?) can slow down a lil....like last time...

maison... this bunch, mad....
i kacau a lil, den i cabut...nasib im not the bulleye (aim)

movida, ladies night...
hmm not many chicks tho, but i enjoy more of myself and with frens...
nicest beer ever, hoegaarden, but expensive supplied by them...
i get before 10.30pm, so buy 1 free 1 for rm40+ so 1 for rm21something...so okay lah...

i found a place supply hoegaarden, not a pint, is a glass for rm14.75...fuh cheap shit....so happy enjoy it...wahaha

too bad, u need member to enter there, and price also for member...

next if i go, either i order liquor or if is beer, that for sure hoegaarden only...

now stout, i tried connor's....kinda nice...

rosemount...

enjoyed at machap umboo with my uncles, okaay lah...
as got 1 night i went machap and bring this and another left over bombay....
bombay was finish but didnt open this....

next day forgotten bring back home, then another night went up again go hav dinner with 2nd, 3rd, 5th and 6th uncle at machap umboo....2nd and 6th uncle is from aussie, they know which is the one...(for alcohols...)LOL

dang, my 2nd uncle and the aunty present me this....so happy.... =P

im a drinker?? no lah, not really also....

just like to enjoy them, got 1 time, sudden thought in my mind, how nice if my home have a small bar, and it have fresh draught of beers....syok~

of coz good beers lah, i cant stand beers like carlsberg....geli~

last time dont drink beer, now can accept d...

oh, especially good beer lah.... hehe

got 1 time, coz of 1 thing, i drunked myself at home, i cant even walk, and vomit inside toilet...

next day went class, sit there stood there termenung, head spinnin around, stomach feel gonna 'overflow'....

yeala, take liquor to, xiao chou and tao bi....

ya ya ya, haih, i dont want to face it...can or not?? i just dont want...

done, i dont want to say it d...

shisha, look out point...

2011-04-16T12:15:00.000-07:00

shisha shisha, bad bad bad...but nice...
hmm u ppl will say, why josh take shisha, anyway i just try...i doesnt really like it but now i does feel wana try again, erm not for the sake of wanting....
no idea what is it...

look out point, nice place, very nice night scenery kuala lumpur city, too bad i didnt brought my cam...
that time went up with friends, then shisha there and playing cards....
pheww nasib baik never lose any money as i dont like to gamble....

oppss, i dont gamble and smoke (shisha)...now i do...
weird huh?? now i does something i dont usual do....
so what do that mean??

why i do and what do that mean??????????

hate??

2011-04-15T10:22:00.000-07:00

is it now feel like hating??

hate??

i oso dono what i feel of....

inside me, kucar kacir, 乱！

真的是不明白，不清楚，不了解，不懂不懂不懂！

IRRESPONSIBLE...

2011-04-14T12:26:00.001-07:00

IRRESPONSIBLE....

.......

2011-03-28T05:31:00.000-07:00

say, waatt upppppp.....

i need a doctor......

2011-03-23T10:20:00.000-07:00

[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life

[Eminem]
I told the World one day I would pay it back
say it on tape, and lay it, record it
so that one day I could play it back
but I don’t even know if I believe it when I’m saying that
ya’ll starting to creep in, everyday its so grey and black
hope, I just need a ray of that
cause no one see’s my vision when I play it for ‘em
they just say its wack
they don’t know what dope is
and I don’t know if I was awake or asleep
when I wrote this,
all I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest
you picked me up, breathing life in me
I owe my life to you
before the life of me, I don’t see why you don’t see like I do
but it just dawned on me you lost a son
see this light in you, it’s dark.
let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you
I don’t think you realize what you mean to me
not the slightest clue
cause me and you were like a crew
I was like your sidekick
you gon either wanna fight me when I get off this f-cking mic
or you gon hug me
but I’m not an option, there’s nothing else I can do cause…

[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle
you come to me with ideas
you say there just pieces so I’m puzzled
cause the shit i hear is crazy
but your either getting lazy or you don’t believe in you no more
seems like your own opinions, not one you can form
cant make a decision you keep questioning yourself
second guessing and its almost like your begging for my help
like I’m your leader
your supposed to f-cking be my mentor
I can endure no more,
I demand you remember who you are
it was YOU, who believed in me
when everyone was telling you don’t sign me
everyone at the f-cking label, lets tell the truth
you risked your career for me
I know it as well as you
nobody wanted to f-ck with the white boy
Dre, I’m crying in this booth
you saved my life, now maybe its my turn to save yours
but I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more
but I aint giving up faith and you aint giving up on me
get up Dre, I’m dying, I need you, come back for f-ck’s sake
[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life
bring me back to life
bring me back to life
(I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life)
[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
but I still remember the shit like it was just yesterday though
you walked in, yellow jump suit
whole room, cracked jokes
once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
went through friends, some of them I put on
but they just left, they said they was riding to the death
but where the f-ck are they now
now that I need them, I dont see none of them
all I see is Slim
f-ck all you fair-weather friends
all I need is him
f-cking backstabbers
when the chips were down you just laughed at us
now you bout to feel the f-cking wrath of aftermath, faggots
you gon see us in our lab jackets and ask us where the f-ck we been?
you can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
little crack a jack beat making wack math,
backwards producers, I’m back bastards
one more CD and then I’m packing up my bags and as I’m leaving
I’ll guarantee they scream Dre don’t leave us like that man cause…

[Chorus]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life

now, i keep playing this song....

the only sentence in my head is, "im about to lose my mind, you've been gone for so long, im running out of time, i need a doctor, call me a doctor, i need a doctor....doctor, to bring me back to LIFE.....

as now im drinking....and drunk d.... ;)

SUEDE !!

2011-03-23T03:55:00.000-07:00

yeaaaappp, u hear me, is mah suuuueeeedddeeee....

at last i got my suuueeeddeeeee...ssssss....
TWO PAIR.....

last time i wana get suede, then changed mind wana get highcut suede, the Puma First Round...
but waaatt, out of stock and they restock for 3times.... yea THREE TIMES!!

cyan purple magic and purple magic white... ;)

when i saw, i had my eye on the purple ones, then look look, they have orange, green and erm this cyan colour....

i test wear the purple, i ask for size 8 but too hell tight....
then i ask the girl get me a 9....

while waitin, i take this cyan suede, then i ask my fren, eh chun boh....
i know the colour is damn stricking lah, but is DOPE....

last last, i get both lar....coz have discount, if not i pay more if i buy only 1....LOL

and thats the last day for discount, also only for digi user....yeeeeezzaahhh~

mad, i call my mom, kena her diu i bought two....LOL

now, i want ask for soccer shoe, kena mom scold again, said i get two pair shoe stil tak cukup and now want soccer shoe....mad, waste money...sai lui....

yea, im the one want to buy this and that although didnt buy....

soccer shoe not for soccer, but hehe, for paintball purpose lar....

but then, i still will wear my old Puma GV Tournament, even i myself repaint it...then it look newer...wahaha

this two pair Puma Suede, i must take care em both properly, canot get dirty, after wear em, wash the bottom den put in the box.... =P

sayang my suede....

sunseto

2011-03-23T03:41:00.000-07:00

;) out from the balcony...

S30 love

2011-03-18T04:44:00.001-07:00

oh yea 1 of my old school love....
the japanese army is the dopest of all...hahaha

henry kosasih's sorcery NA1 NSX

2011-03-18T04:40:00.000-07:00

hmmm, just wana share...

this red hot awesome Honda NSX, super dope, dopest of all...
so cool, the sorcery kits, widebody, ricer's carbon wing at the rear and big ass wheel...
and OH, LOWERED.....TYYTTEE yooo...

if u see this red hot chick at your rear.......

low low low...

this current my dekstop wallpaper....
superb ~~ass~~ rear...

carrrbbooonnnn headlight weeyyy...

you just cant leave your eye on her....

you wont bored keep starting her at every angle...

honda? RED!! ;)

done, this pic is the last....

most awesome angle of all....hehe

wide wing, wide ass and is RED.....

pics from Mayday Garage, heres the link to the thread and video

ps...i love her....i mean the car....

...

2011-03-10T11:29:00.000-08:00

gan jue xiong kou hen tong, ye hen shao...

Tang zai chuang shang bu neng dong...

Hen nan hu xi...
Shou bu liao le, hao xin ku...

The Season Five

2011-03-06T12:11:00.000-08:00

i forgot whats the burger name....
but i know is AWESOME....hahaha

pics edi awesome, of coz lar is awesome....
in delicious, yummies, and awesoomeee...hahahaha

Cny time

2011-02-21T00:05:00.000-08:00

my cny time, just like that only...
not the one i was hoping can celebrate with some ppl...
nvm anyway...i just shut the fuck up can d... ;)

first day of cny, as usual, slept til noon, and then get ready went up to machap umboo to visit my 3rd uncle, mom side uncle with my whole family...
my 5th uncle and the family was there also, so is some kind small reunion lar...
mom side is a big family...super big and super great if the aussie's side came back...

we went there for visit and lunch, yea i like my 3rd aunty cooking, have the taste of Yeow's family baba nyonya kind of and also my grandmother type...
but still NO ONE, NO ONE can beat my grandma pong teh....
perrgghhh, her's pong teh the best....and she's the best....
that time when i was small, she really sayang of me, my parent went for holidays then i was leaved to my grandma and machap baru...
coz i was still small, not convenient bring around....
and last time my grandma help me do my homework, so nice heh....help me do colouring work, help me do it in time, if not i sure kena my mom scold and sebat...lol

anyway continue the topic, as i will get emotional when story about my grandma...last time very emotional now can control d...haha
i will cry...seriously, now wont lar...

the bird flower, or flower bird??

my house have few pots d, last 2 yrs my mom get from my 3rd aunt den slowly plant them...

my 5th uncle daughther, my cousin, and that baby is her bro daughter...

*bbbrrrrr*

my fifth uncle....

all time best smoker and best alcoholic....

and oh, gamble....==

my bro brought the Jack Daniel Blue Label to this uncle to try, lol 3/4 of the whisky become 1/4 now....

my bro sad, but he said nvm, this expensive whisky only for own ppl...not outsiders....coz is farking expensive weyyy and darn nice to drink....seriously....

after that, we went back home to send my doggie back, our YouTa. He also come together go kai kai and go visit take ang paos....

no he didint take ang paos... ;)

after send him back, off we go to KL...i was happy a lil, see if can go Pav buy my Puma shoe....seriously, im want shoe so badly, coz mine erm....wore more than 3yrs d...

even the paint off d, i use white paint marker to make it a lil better touch.....sad :'(

we thought, first day of cny, road will be clear, yes for KL but not the highway....

heck, we haven reach rembau edi jam til nilai, after nilai the road cllear ups a lil....

sux man, 1 is bus accident another is i dono why after we pass the accident....weird...

we reach the china doctor restaurant, den we chit we chat, we makan we lao shang we drink drink drink...

nice french wine by him, as he didnnt chill it, i was, oh no, liao lar wine no chill, takut not nice...

once i try a sip, i was wowed, woooo...unexpected awesome wine ever!!

seriously awesome wine...

den he let us tried his, another type of chinese wine, use diff kind of remedies mix together and put it into big big bottle....darn, 1st sip...diu macam drink ethanol...

seriously, i drank pure ethanol before....canot tahan, even my bro was dead after he take it as shot.....pergghh, gone case his taste buds....hahaha

for those alcohol kaki, macam those clubbing posers like to drink the whole whisky by his own....

I CHALLENGE HIM drink 1 litre of that....oh anyway, 1 shot of that chinese homemade liquor, more than 50% alcohol and not cheap anyway... ;)

woot wait, this the awesome stuff, pig ear....fuhh first i was, eerrkkk geli yeerr...

once my mom ask me to try and is also for good skin, of coz la eat eat eat...wakaka

1 sliced of this, hav many many of pig ear.... :\

this name is saliva chicken, that is in chinese lar....

口水鸡, the name sound awful heh....

but mouth blowing dish.... ;)

this, best ever yu shang i've ever eat...

this is quality stuff yo, keropok was nice everything nice lar...

super yummy, first ever eat such nice yu shang...

time for business....

lao ya lao, lao ya lao....heng ah, huat ah, fuck ah..... hehehe

this fish, my mom say, eh why the fish head like that ah....

me and the china doc was.....=.="""" (wtf?!)

the meat was potong-ed already, and this side is sweet and sour, another side is diff flavour....

i;ve forgotten what flavour is it.....

anyway done, mom chat until 9something, Pav close...sigh sienn no puma new shoe d....

lebih!

then i drove back to malacca....

Afamosa Safari and cowboy town

2011-02-20T01:18:00.000-08:00

oh is last two month stuff, last december 2010...
now just wana update heh...

yea so many pics to edit, now really sien to taking photo and especially lazy to edit it...
doesnt have the mood for that...

anyway, lets the pictures speaks... ;)
some of the pics hav watermarks, some no...
for those have, i personally like the shots... ;)

run run...

damn, they are sleeping but the eye....

hiieee yaaa~~

ngaaaoommm, i wana bite off ur hand!!

i like all the monkey shots...

this too...

this three...

this...

yeap,....

damn, the long grass spoil the beauty of the birds...

i like this too...

the birdie taking money for donation...

i like eagle...seriously...

looks awesome...

heyy, crocky here...

she's touchin her ass....

shes stomping his....erm....u know lah

flamy thrower...

definitely cool...

oh okay, this two hua nah zha boh really spoil my shot...

he actually posing act cute to me....

chaooo tuuttt this two chicks...

ffiireeworks for the last bits...

tata, gone 2010...
my 2010 post is done...

ELMOssss...

2011-02-14T11:54:00.000-08:00

sooooo cute weyyy...

i like those elmos, atleast i want one...hehe
the red one, then the rest i want pink i want blue i want purple and bla bla...
errr means is every edi loh...hoho

ehehe =P
can can?? ;)
once seeing the elmos, feel happier...for awhile....

and just now on my fb wall, saw the speedhunters.com posted a bad ass red hot Honda NSX...
next time i just have a lil cover on that chick....
super cool, super hot, super awesome.....yeaaa totally !!

changed..

2011-02-01T07:53:00.000-08:00

but im not...

been year, been changing alot...too bad i cant take it, as it change......

just back from mamak with friends, 1 of my fren brought me back as i went dinner with parent and they fetch me go there...
better tho, less driving, and i shouldnt drive more at nite, luck been not at my side, been happen few bad stuff and my accident rate is very high...
is not mean my driving skills, my luck is run out, also i hate to drive with temper...
i hate ppl make me angry when im driving......

hmm, shouldnt blame ppl tho...is it?? blame myself doesnt control my temper...

lately been hot tempered for many times, not some times...very stressful and tiring...
also not i, myself wanted, just thought of few stuffs or other ppl light up the fire......

i doesnt know what to do this time, something like, "mong tau wu ying"...
or like a human walk without their pair of eyes...

really no clue what im doin, what i should do, i cant think straight, i think what is right or wrong......
feel just damn blardy stupid, foolish now...

oh back to what i want to say, my fren fetch me back, when on the road what he said, i should clear everything up, if not, is im the one suffering.....
yes im suffering right now, and this time is cny time, i shouldnt have this kind of feeling attacking me...
as im super duper depress, and stress right now...
he also said, seems things is like that, and i keep on leave like that, then i macam like a slave...
yea i feel so, and is very foolish right??
ppl feel lonely or free, just come and find u, when they are busy, they ignore u, what u said dont even reply at all....not anything...
sigh, i really no idea at all, dono dono dono...
someone, pls make me clear...
too much doubts in my head, thats why i cant think well, cant focus to my life at all....

i need support, attentions, cares and loves......

bored

2011-01-31T11:15:00.000-08:00

yea i am bored...

yea super duper bored... huh
damn, that really nice to touch this device tho...

oh, final is there, is there...yea it is there...
what im doin most of time?? nah, dreaming...

what other ppl doin?? get their ass off studying...
me??

check out that chick...

2011-01-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

" Hey bro, check out that chick...nice huh..."

UNWELL...

2011-01-27T22:39:00.000-08:00

not in the good mood today, and not in the kind of mood recently...

what everything last time can be done, then now how??
feel annoyed...

last time i storied about my past, then feel kesian and said wont be like that, the respond gave me, i just silent and i know what gonna happen...
yea, it happened...ignorance...

samethings but different people...

wht when we had done so much and no appreciation...

i dono what to say anything, been driving so hard, offended alot ppl, feel annoyed wat parent ask me to do, especially fetch my sis HERE AND THERE...
im not willing to do, i say no, better dont ask me to do...
sometime i will ok, fine i do...but this only works with few ppl...VERY FEW...

i dont want to drive in this kind of mood....
later wana go out again, fetch sis go tuition and back tuition....car dont hav petrol and i dont hav money to pump it...
so hell now....thats fine...

blasting songs, make my mood better and this will annoyed my neighbours....
fuck it...

third day for kl trip...

2011-01-25T09:37:00.000-08:00

hah, purposely put 3 post for it tho...heeeeeee...

me...we didnt wake up early although i can go mid valley or 1U at the morning time...
if i wake up lah...
no we didnt, i sleep...sleep sleep, coz previously was hell tired standing for hours and out for 1 whole day tho...
gilerr tired tau...and im sleeper...haha no wake up for morning...

as usual my wake up time, then get ready, stomach was calling d...
lets go for lunch, and pack up bags, ready,then go back. but before that, makan first lah kan??

oh, again, TGI Friday...hhaha
i left few ringgits nia, as i help fren buy Paintball stuff, just the NXE 4+1 harness nia...
but then fren help me pay for this lunch first...

after pack ups, put things in car, there we go. we drove to sunway although we just beside sunway, coz after lunch no jalan, just go back...
but hell, we find for parking inside sunway for 1 hour plus...hell huh...diiiuuuuuuuuu~~~

running low on patient and super hungry dah, both of us almost wana diu 1 SO HAI girl....lol

napkins...

left, choc chip shake (RM10.90) , right, choc fudge shake (RM10.90)...

mine is fudge, i like mine more but both nice...

fuhh~, this shouldn't missed...

Buffalo Wings (RM13.90)...

Parmesan Ques. With Bacon (RM 19.91), oh this contain beef...

i makan my own...==

another shot of this, i felt this angle much nicer tho...

what do u think??

Diablo Pasta (RM27.90)

pergghh, nama so geng edi, taste lagi geng la wei...hahaha

lastly, was mine...

Sirloin Steak (RM43.90), Medium Rare, Cheddar Mashed Poh tah toh, Black Pepper Sauce and FRIESSSS...

DONE...

totalled up plus 10% service, 5% Gov charge, so, RM146.50...

ffffaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkk...seriously??!!

continue for kl trip...

2011-01-23T09:50:00.000-08:00

continue the update for kl trip...

we didnt wake up early in the morning, as im a person love to over sleep...haha
i dont wake up early also...
kid u not, better dont wake me up early in the morning...

only ppl who know me, then they will know...
no reason why, i just dont like... ;)

then we get ready, and wear GREEN...
erm wear green just coz of supporting the green group, Dynamix crew at the dance competition held at Giza Mall...
first time watch live dance competition...
not so enjoying, but enjoy the loud music...boom boom boom... :p
and enjoy see chicks crew...i mean girls crew...hehe

we need go there early, as my fren need get ticket...
then we jalan, jalan bit...giza mall not for jalan anyway...boring~

fuhh, ever see before a big erm....fan?? lol

and we go to Kelana Jaya's Pro Paintball Resources because that day have big christmas sales going on, and i wana see the Rap4 marker...
hmm, really big sales maann...kinda regret not buying anything....sob
due to i dont hav much money also... :'(

see the marker, RAP4 (Real Action Paintball)

mmg real action, touch, see, feel...especially how the gun (marker) looks very real...

damn CHUN!!

i not stop holding, touching and molesting the marker...daaaammmnnn AWESOME larrr...

oh, and this, Dye i4 Black Gold, this black gold version is limited edition...

that time sell for erm...rm340 i think...around that...

i about mine Tan Liquid for rm400...

isshhh, pekcek...

and i tried Vforce Grill, is a facemask, cheaper kinda not bad too...

bit gatal wana buy...wakaka

and JT harness, gloves, and the paintball pant...

but then those cost alot... T.T :(

we at the shop kinda long, walk round and round...that shop not too big or not small either...

two joint shop...

great shop actually, friendly ppl...

after that, time is getting late, we need to go Giza Mall to wait the time...

wait and wait and wait for hours...
then they are ready....

setting up...

starto....

intro...

bla bla bla, damn malas to story the whole thing, and damn tiring standing for whole nite...

not kaki lenguh, is kaki sakit...sore....

then we went back subang, Asian Cafe MAKAN!!!
super hungry siooott...

Ban mian, kinda cheap i think....

pergghh this fried sotong and prawn. although is normal...haha

not mine anyway... lupa wat name is this

passion fruit, but i taste like mango...

and mix with errrr....

ini chuuunnn, AWESOOMMMEE....

then we go beside AC (asian cafe) tar pao this famous burger....i think price about rm5 je...

chhunnneeesstt also...

settle... bye

KL trippu... at Carl's Jr

2011-01-20T03:54:00.000-08:00

oh ya hor, lupa update my KL trip...
was went there together with my fren, he also having his holilay tho...

i go there stay at his house, just beside sunway je...2nd time go there and stay his house...
awesome time spend along, check out chicks, talk kok sing song all night long~~ all night long~~....hahaha

we start journey during evening time, bla bla bla...
reach there, go to Carl's Junior take our dinner...

two size, big and medium...pergghh see the size...

awesome-ness diu~....

the bill

check out how big is that chips....

i lupa this my burger's name...dono wat western, is beef anyway...

with two slice bacon(chicken) and cheese...

bluek ;P

double beef patty...

anothr sunseto...

2011-01-17T06:48:00.000-08:00

lately been raining, my car never been wash again...
due to cloudy and rainy during this new year time??

world already change...australia heavy flood, until roof top...
taiwan snow...
malaysia, been....erm rainy and cloudy already for weeks...1 or 2 weeks i think??

me?? my mood also...my day...also...
sigh...dono how to say tho...

lets enjoy the sunset... ;)
enjoy the cooling breeze, go for night drive, and blasting the trance...
waste the petrol, but just for the sake of enjoy the drive and make the mood better...

night drive til next morning, enjoy the drive, enjoy the beauty of the car, the exhaust note, the feel, the breeze, the empty road......
aahhh, nice......

my dream is always wana drive my all time favourite and love AE86....
never been changing at all and never been fade away...

Help Save Social Energy

2011-01-12T05:41:00.001-08:00

http://www.savesocialenergy.com/prize.aspx?ref=48d3da44-fc8d-4498-b4d3-e64d568c916e

anyway, just help me to click the link and sign in with ur hotmail ID...
no worries about scam or virus...
dont worry anyway

same but two round of bday...

2011-01-08T02:01:00.000-08:00

was at season five, the first...the second was at Berth's....
so i should post this first...but nvm...==

christmas mood everywhere during the december...was great...

and very qi dai the christmas...

fuhh, tell u, this soup awesome mann...

baaaammm, awesome!!

Clam Chowder Soup

Ice Kappacinoh...

nite time drink kohee harr... :p

Chicken Gordon Bleuuu...

this place Gordon Bleuu is much more better than Wok & Pan...

trust me... ;)

New York Beef Burger...foooooo~~

yeaapp, see that, NY Cheese yaawww...

fuhh, see that beef patty...awesome yaawww, i love to see something big for food...

damn boring to see small small kind volume for food...booooooorrinnngggg

anyway that day 12/12/2010 went Season Five Restaurant, that day is the 4th day they opened. This shop open by the Simply Fish's boss, is also another outlet but different name...

so come and support, great place great food...time to change... ;)

time for good change for the malaccan, no more those boring...*cough* cheapo *cough* business... ;)

no offence but true... ;)

bad serving, charge higher than the volume they serve and not great to the customers...

anyway, appreciate it, no one do like this...

twice...

coconut milk shake in the making...

2011-01-05T06:03:00.000-08:00

was wana try to do coconut milk shake for long time after i see and know how to do when i buy that drink at klebang...
soooo senang, easy peasy...

but then need few more doing then can match with their taste...
this time just lack of the coconut taste...

deng, coconut isi and the juice go in..

not to forget the ice...

vanilla ice cream...

and oh, syrup water (sugar lah)...

blend blend blend....

blend blend blend... oh! YouTa asleep...hehe

then serve... ;)

1 nice shot for rainbow at my house area....

superb beautiffuuuuuuuuulll....

Happy Birthday... ;) ;x

2011-01-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

Happy 1213 !! ;)

a specially bought from Renaissance Melaka Hotel, is a Devil Fudge...

fuh, the choc awesome kick...and erm kinda geli if eat much...

wana thanx to Mr. Yong from Account Dept. , RMH... ;)

lupa apa chicken dah...awesome chunnest too...

oh ya is Chicken Mornay...

ah, too bad is beef...unable to share the awesomeness of my favourite Lasagne...

Dinner from Bert's Garden at Klebang or Tanjung Kling, somewhere near my house or is just Seafarer furthur up nia...
i ordered Teriyaki Chicken, not nice to take photo coz not good looking and not that nice to eat... :P

still okay, but not much of selection for Western foods...
they serve much of those ikan bakars stuff like that or seafoods lah...

Pumas...

2011-01-02T08:30:00.000-08:00

wanting for a cool dope sneakers for long already...
especially Puma, firstly hook up to Puma Suede...the colour and the Suede...

and then interested to the high-cut Puma First Round...

this is the Puma Suede, mid-cut/mid top...

then this the Puma First Round....

this one quite nice, black purple...

not bad too...

saw this in the internet, not the puma website, but never seen this in the Puma Store also... :(

this would be nice and easy to suit my clothing...

Black Gold, fuuuhhh...chun eh....

this one lagi chun.....>.<

but i more preffered colour type, either purple or blue...

i like others colour but just too fancy d...would nice if i buy then keep it as collection... :p

how how how?? where to get it worr...sob sob...

been to sunway and timesquare Puma Store but not really seen this kind geh Puma First Round plain colour...

i saw is macam Camo type...quite nice actually and my mom say if want buy then just buy lo as dont hav other chance to come up kl....

sigh~

Happy Happy Birthday and New Year !!!

2010-12-31T02:09:00.001-08:00

hooraaaayyyy, wishing everyone have great year and Happy New Year... ;))

Merry Merry Jolly Jolly Christmas... ;)

2010-12-31T02:08:00.000-08:00

wished everyone would have merry merry Jolly Christmas !! ;)

although is late, but nevertheless... hehe

me??not really have a good christmas, as i get accident during the eve, sigh...
was at traffic light and gave a motorcyclist run over red light bang to my left rear door...
i was super fine, but inside my heart was damn pain...
then my christmas and my whole week not so great that have hard time on transport prob to go campus...

big SIGH for my christmas... :'(
nevermind, christmas only 1 time a year but then next other have christmas too...
so, party hard next year...haha

anyway, enjoy the pics...

Sunseto...

2010-12-31T01:52:00.000-08:00

yeaapp, can say im sunset hunter...

but then im a lazy hunter....hahahaha :PPP

already few times i discovered during the year end, the sunset time is superb...

but this year, november and december is rainy season...

two of the days during december i discover the most and chun-est sunset i've ever see it during the year end, but then im driving or camera not with me tho...
damnnn!! keksim lo...

this time, sunset not-really-so-nice...
but then still manage to capture it lah...nonetheless still got it...

im goin to wait til the 2011 year end to get the nicest sunset again, but then during the 365-days of 2011, still will have it tho, but then lets see my mood and my time nia...hehe

december, and christmas..

2010-12-01T09:01:00.000-08:00

shit, everything come sooooo fast...

damn it, i cant take it man...

1st dec already over, now is 2nd...

christmas mood is turning on, *ting* and playing my christmas playlist, with the chipmunks too...
awesome cute... ;)

but shit all of sudden, 1 damn cockroach kill the mood, spray spray then that fucker run and run, sudden go into the woofer's hole...SHIT!!
i only heard of the sound it doin dono wat shit inside...

i try to give some shake let it out, and i grab the electric 'badminton racket' for killing mosquitor or flies...
now i use it to kill the fucking cockroach, i hate cockroach, i hate MOTHA FUCKER MAT REMPIT TOO, FUCK THEIR ASS damn bloody mahai...
nop, i wont dirty my dick to fuck them anyway... ;)
mat rempit just macam kacuak, cockroach...

eh, this should be a nice post, but damn, saying about the cockroach and those really spoiling it...
nvm come back to it again...

i wish to receive christmas present, i wana get the elf and santa hat...not coz i wana become elf or santa...
i like the green and also want the better quality of elf hat...
also, i feel wana get a christmas present for my own, yes for my own. i think of, erm, paintball stuff? erm? what other stuff? , anyway i want to get it because of i want to feel the happy, the feeling when opening a package...wow...

just want to feel surprise, awesome and happy...
but this month, before christmas, gonna use all my savings gua...

unstable and uneasy...

2010-11-30T06:29:00.000-08:00

every day, every minutes, every single second......

since my semester start and before semester start, everything seems to be not settle down peacefully, im getting hella of stress, tonnes of poops...

now is the 6th month, no improments, still the same, or maybe is going worst day by day...truely, im sick of it getting over me, felt dying, hard to breath, not focusing, not concentrate everything in every day life......

but im hearing a voice, a voice calling....from far...............

hheeeyyyyy~~.....josh, heyyy~.... josh, wake up josh.....pls come back, josh~......

but im deep inside a very dark, hollow place......
total clueless what im doing, what im heading of......

the stress, the pressure still not going away, everyday im thinking thinking thinking...
brain stuffed up with many many stuff that bothering me, the doubts that inside making me living in life with confuse and blurr...

sigh pls man, pls im begging, if is helpless, im begging, im sicken of all this things...
i have no more energy to stood up there, really no more energy try to be strong....either in mentally or physically......

sigh, PLEASE!!

HATE november

2010-11-27T03:18:00.000-08:00

i just wana say, I HATE NOVEMBER !!

i dono but shit, i just hate it so much already...

everyday i wake up, only that thing kept on bugging me, make my every day so confuse after is happened...

so i wana say, I HATE NOVEMBER and the day itself, when the day?? mai they...

haiihh, fucking lifeless!!
i just wana lay down my head, close my eye...

Seafood Day

2010-11-23T10:55:00.000-08:00

yes, is seafood daaaayyy, which is on friday at Renaissance Melaka Hotel !!

oysters oysters oysters, mussels mussels mussels, fresh half cooked prawn...
the oysters are the main thing that me and my bro wanted to go for, others, errr not so...
after buffet, back home, use comp, then stomach spinnin, go to toilet, and settle...LOL yea again...

hmm very basi update, but nevertheless is update...
and happy basi birthday to me... ;)

lets see i wana post it or not...............

cheese toast again, with the bacon...

2010-11-09T03:37:00.000-08:00

wrong way doin with the bacon, thought bacon was thin enough can bake in the oven...
but then, is a no no... :(
nevermind i ate it raaawwwww...haha

zzzzz, middle of night and so damn hungry, need to wait the bacan defroze... ~.~

mean time waiting, heating up the oven and ready the stuff i wana make...

some tomato, the jap mayoneise im using and DOUBLE cheeseeee....

aiyo just cheddar cheese nia...tak syokk pun...

sprinkle some peepaahhh on top...

then mix the mayo and tomato, then spread it all over the bread...

okaayy, putting the cheese and bacon on top...

put it inside and bake it for erm few minutes...

until it become golden in colour...i like this kind of colour...

niceeee, damnn im super hungry now

but then, cheese ham is the best combination...

hmm next time wana try add some shredded cheese...

and i got a new plan trying to toast something...muehehe

i luuuurrvveee my Dye i4

2010-11-09T03:13:00.000-08:00

yeaa, im getting crazy of paintballs...darn crazy with this sport, never been that itchy-ness and madness...

GILA!!

once i played, i already decide that goin to be a paintballer and goin to get myself a facemask...
time to time, survey here and there, asking those experienced, go online surveying around...

after all just last two week, decided to get this liquid tanned DYE i4....
coolest facemask ever, coolest and most nicest looks...
i got it erm last two week i think...

dye invision...the 'i' stand for invision...i4...
woot woot open box time is the greatest...awesome feel...

taaaadaaaaa, liquid tanned...
super lovin this mask.....yiiiiiii yooooo i luuurrveee my mask...
straight away wear it...haha

the foam at inside, it hold and support ur face...
totally different wearing those rental mask...
yep of coz la, big difference with the price lagi leh....

but then others proto axis mask, i dono how for others lah...
this one is super comfy, gurantee 100% for this...

oh my, soooooo cool, cantik nyeeeeeee.....
damn really kena racun d, so damn liking the Dye products...

even survey their e-marker, the DM series and another....
shit shit...but then need a very very very very long time to get marker...so haiz dont even think about it as i didnt work also...

okeh, start camwhoring with it...
deng 1 shot, front shot...

side shot...

3rd shot, with snowcap on...
coz this mask didnt protect the head area...

4th...

even i wore this snowcap on during game, kena two times at head, darn ass pain...
last saturday have game and til this monday still feeling the swollen at my fore head and another is at my side head....
today tuesday feel much better d....

only my left elbow is the most critical...bleeding woooo...hahaha
this game, NO PAIN NO FUN... ;)
like this baru syokk ma...

Mercedes Benz E300

2010-10-31T00:12:00.000-07:00

watt?? a V6 inside, and 3.0, and twin muffler...
but then not a V8...hehe nvm nvm im crazy power...

if is a V8 sure gonna hav the sweet sound and im sure i cant stop to revving it to show off the pure V8 sound...
wooo...

yeap, the engine...

the interior...woot avantgarde...

meter console, saw that two thingy hidin behind the steering??
hehe

yeap, the flappy padel aka padel shift...darn nice...
oh this car E300 didnt have the center gearbox, u need to switch to P, R, N D with this switch...

huhu, the flappy padel...

the picture above is just simply taken with my fone camera...
below pics using my dslr, much more serious taking...haha
hmm looks bit dark or is it my monitor brightness tho??

the front, the head light and LED fog light will auto on it no matter is daylight, but when u drove it out the headlight will auto off and just projecting the LED fog...
but u can switch off the auto setting tho...

eh forgot to darken the plate...kns

the LED fog...

cool looking headlight...

yeaaapp, oval shaped twin muffle, it does sound lil diff but need lil more noisier tho...hehe

anyway, this is somebody car, not mine...nor my parent... ;)

nice to drive this, the first good and bad thing i dont like is the alot of the auto stuffs, i adjust the seat then my side and rear mirror will auto adjusted...nvm i just re adjust the rear then the side mirror...
but err, when i adjust side mirror, the rear mirror had adjusted will auto adjust back...duhh...
macam playing a fool of me...lol

first thing when goin into the car, oh ya is a keyless go, u hav key in ur hand or ur pocket, u just touch the door handle then it will auto unlock, then step the brake and press the push start button...
fuhh cool shit...i like the push start button...
then my left hand will automatically grab the center gear, my reaction was "eh...forgot the gear change at the right steering there liao...haha"

the steering respond was nice, and steering is darn light, is like feather light...fuhh, not driving anything like that...

and i forgot to switch to S-mode (Sport mode) to try the flappy padel, coz with normal C-mode the gear change very slow...

wana drive it another time...very nice car to drive...
yea of coz, is a german made automobile and is a mercedes benz...u pay for the price for what u get...
im driving enthusiast and car enthusiast, always like to test out diff kind of cars... ;)
and of cause, the car need to suit my character and my drive...

after the game...

2010-10-29T10:29:00.000-07:00

wooo, after that day game, weekday promo rm30 for 150palletes at Flashpoint Paintball park...
then i have extra palletes fromt previous game...but then also cant use finish coz just 4 ppl playing nia...sienn

that was my right elbow...
kena my fren shot, then right away bleed....

my left chest, somewhere near to my heart...haha
fuhh the feel get shot right at there and without any camo cloth or protector vest...darn pain...

there u see it...
yea im thin....nvm...
as long im healthy... ;)

gonna have another game for another time, now, im spending my money just to make myself happy...
im not a happy person anymore, if u see me haha laughing or what, mayb im in ok mood...and i just dont want be in bad mood...
especially when i at home or alone, then my mood is suck up to hell......
sigh, forget bout it...

now i just can think of paintball give me a short happy nia...
anyway now, i think alot of times d, im open for vancancy... ;)
wana know whats the meaning for that...ask me...

Deep Fried Ginger fish...

2010-10-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

this dish very nice actually, with the deep fried ginger and some squeeezzeee of the lime on it...
but then previously, the soy sauce is much more and not that...dry....==

sigh, everytime go outside eat either small volume or whatever but u pay for the shit same price and getting smaller volume....sigh

mom's bday...

2010-10-23T10:24:00.000-07:00

most spoil mood is mom said that, aiya there i go before and the food louya, sux...
when i was driving, my expression and mood from top to zero...wtf
nevertheless, heres the pics of the foods...
just order the pizza and speghetti at Bamboo Hut...

thin crust pizza, the topping was okay, but the crust that roti is too tough, and is thin crust pizza, is tought like biscuit...=.= DUH!!

this not bad, but shiitt, 2 person volume??
dont fool me la pls...

the cake specially ordered from Renaissance Melaka Hotel, Marble Cheese Cake...
Chun, the cheese taste was great thick...awesome kickkkk...

Ramadhan Buffet @ Renaissance Melaka Hotel

2010-10-16T23:00:00.000-07:00

doesnt know did i update this or not...

but then, nvm...

that time was very eager to try the Ramadhan buffet, fellows colleagues was talking and waiting it happen...
me too, as i luuurrrveee to eat...
those aunties know me...hehe

now, kinda miss the environment and the fellow people...

need to thanx Susan effort to make the buffet happening for our Account section...kinda great grouping everyone together, enjoy the food and enjoy chatting...

yeap, the first, nasi briani, ayam percik (this daaaaammnnn good!! really miss the percik so much), dono wat lamb(sux), another lamb was ok but the meat kinda tough....

same again...

ehh i didnt realise have seafoods, oh my, when i came in i see the seafood at front section, banyak macam gunung...so have 3 gunung...oh meeeee gaaawwddd...
straight syok sendiri d...

mussels, slipper lobster, prawn...
but then slipper lobster ppl called it is, lai liu ha, so is not lobster...
the meat, some was fine some was, ueekkk, not cooked...

oh ya, the kebab, ichiban...dammn good aswell...
stuffed into the roti, kinda alot too...yummy shit...
have few rounds of the seafood, ayam percik and the kebab lamb...woot woot...

mulut itchy d...haven take my lunch oso...
haiz, dono want to eat or not...no mood

N2 AE86 Championship...

2010-10-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

yeah u hear me, is N2!!!!

wide bodied N2 kits, BIG WIDE TALL GTwing that can sidai baju, screaming loud ass 4age....
crazy torque of AE86 with 4AGE powered....

thats my kind of tea, forever wont jelak...

this video kinda touched, they have celebration of Keiichi Tsuichiya retirement and do so much stuff for him...
bring back those good ol days memories when he's young time with the Advan AE86, damn, he said when he drive the 86, others 86, 1.6 class is not his competitor, he aim for/ go for GTR...

the part those GT guys, made a N2 race competition just for him also, Keiichi Tsuchiya the drift king, dori dori kin, drive the TRD N2 Levin 86...argh the nicest yo...

just watch it, sien wana write up...haha

suck up life...FML

2010-10-13T10:47:00.000-07:00

that day, spotted 1 waja police car, that type waja doesnt have the pdrm sticker all round, just sticker of "POLICE" infront bonnet and rear trunk with police logo and code area...

yea this, was behind me...when i came out from junction, this car passby me and inside the driver and the wife staring me like the wife already laid with me like that....wtf!! the driver is not on duty, not in uniform...with wife lea, duty or not duty...
not important anyway...

police drive 100km/h, i was 80kmh, the driver and passenger the wife also not wearing any seatbelt...
i dont need to go their door i also can see from the side or behind of the car....

staring at me like i had murdered ur kid or murdered ur whole family like that...or rape ur daughter or ur wife...wtf...
i just driving so relaxing and all of sudden...wtf...

-------

last sunday just have short game with the pros...
my body not really kena, mostly all at my legs...coz of my flashy leg?? ==
all the palletes bounce to my leg when half squadding behind the air bunker....aduii...not fair lea...

but then that day purposely wear short pant for paintball...

short game, 1 pack of this 500 palletes still remain so much....
not really hav fun but abit entertaining and make my mood better for a short while...

dono wana ketuk my bro buy me facemask or not, and along a marker....
marker is name for the paintball gun... but then is expensive, only facemask is the most important and the affortable to get...
i feel wana get the Dye i4, for rm400++... @@ T.T
for markers i guess will be rm1k++ bah... so only possible to get is facemask lorr, and of coz must comfy and the lens wont get foggy...

i still not really afford to play this game, might be once a month nia......
that day cost me rm90, coz of i take 500palletes mar...

two "lovebites" on left and right, both leg too...only this left is the most visible and swollen...
when get shot right away can feel da pain but after that not anymore...
just cant wait to have another game...

i remember my most fun time was with two of my bros and my elder bro's fren...
my elder bro also a kind of gila guns(weapons) and shootings...
i guess whatever kind of gun he also know, those ww1 and ww2 weapon too...even the aircraft or ship or even the tank!!
mad kia, study medic as doctor but diff interest.... ==
from young, he just love play shooting games in comp...
then to arcade shooting games...

now i poison him, try paintball....but then his stamina is crap...lol
but he's more into airsoft, bb gun... not those chee qiong gai or jonker walk buy that kind of small kid play...

the airsoft im talking is something like this...reality toy gun, thats just similar to real gun, only shoot bb bullet...the body part, everything is with metal part, like i said reality toy gun but is not a toy lah...
is illegal in malaysia...
japan have this brand, Tokyo Marui...

the most famous, ppl want it also... m4 or m16...bla bla...

im into the m4a1, also the ww1 M1grand rifle, the older version of m16...thompson sub machine gun also...

mp5...

darn nice...

this one is electric air rifle, stated at the box...

yeah, have electric too, gas blow back, or run with motor electric and gbb also have...

but my bro prefered gas blow back electric....

just only gbb, gas blow back need pump in the air/ gas, even after awhile it will have leakage...

tokyo marui just erm medium range, might have few plastic parts...i guess

but then those taiwan or china made, yes, plastic parts for the body, inside the gearbox the mechanical stuff is metal parts lah, so of coz will be cheap and unreal lorr...

no syok no ohhmmm to play...even bo syok when look at it...

and have high grade of airsoft too, those will be very expensive and truely is metal parts all round...

hiak hiak...

my bro just wait have free time to go thai nia...hmm i wonder there thai can get paintball marker or not...hmmm, if could find it, and cheap, might get it edi lorrrrrrrr

sb ♥

2010-10-07T22:55:00.000-07:00

hmmm, long time never had starbucks...
and long time after my training didnt had any coffeeeeessssss...

da green tea vanilla, awesome kick...

but shit in dilemma want green tea or coffee...lol after tha i get green tea...

after that then i tried my uncles latte...wooo nice man

i pad, kinda missin play it lorr...

beh tahan...

TGI Friday...

2010-10-06T10:59:00.000-07:00

whaaaaaaatttt??????

whats the title saaaaaaiddddd???

i cant hear it???

IS TEEE GEEEE AAAAIII FAAAIII DEEEHHHHH,....

is actually on went up kl on purpose that day, eliang ah boss came to town and he need to send her back to kl in time,.,
so he lied to his mom, lol...yada yada yada yada, all sort of story....and me too...
told parent will went out that nite, yeah it is went out...but went to kl for that while night only...

haiz, seems to be my holiday only went to kl for...few little hours...for dinner...wtf
dont want say about my 1 whole week kl trip d, is really fucking pissed, sad and thought that when i at malacca waiting...
then i get dissapoint AGAIN!!
WTF HUH...F M L!!

anyway, just get to the freaking food thingy...
so also for sake of me, coz hardly i can come to kl so they brought me to have dinner, anything i want...
hmm just only tgi friday cross my mind as my bro racun-ed for a very damn long while...
so i just simply decide, go for tgi, and also we are in subang area, so sunway pyramid hav tgi...
oooo yeah...

too bad for eliang and the boss gonna dig out some money from the atm machine...sry fella... :p
plus i didnt bring that much money also... ==

the menuuu...

yeah tgi friday...

Thanks God Is Friday...

the buffalo wings, damn this one really IMBA...

the white sauce is dono wat thingy of cheese, forgot the name...

but shit, real kinda heavy taste and "stink"...

heavy taste food, thats what im like it yaww...

the buffalo wings, i dono why they called that, that chicken wings kinda sour, so need to dip the white cheese saucy...

fuhh real wow man, sure blows ur mind off...ass kickin man...

hey, Surpriseeee, is strawberry surprise...

darn nice drink...

Jack Daniel Chicken, love how the way that chicken grilled, da sauce...daaaammnn

real good...

oh yea that mashed potato, THE REAL DEAL man...

aint those kind of pussy pussy western food...

da pasta...

shit nice also...thickkkk, and taste shit great...

sorry im using shit, just expressing my feeling tho...

want the real kind of western food?? although expensive, u pay for shit, u get shit...get me aight??

that mean, you get what u pay for...is worth...

next im gonna try chillis and erm dono what others more...

and oh, victoria station, the ship...yes i tried the ship, darn great but better go there early...

i wont go for such western food like Amigo in malacca, damn thats not business man...aint passion for business.....they doing business for just the sake of profit, making money, not for the customers...

here, not many ppl think of that. im a kind of go for real food, good deal of food, of coz tasty delicious food...

NOT CON FOOD!!

wok and pan is still ok, they have the taste, but they dont have the volume. i mean they dont serve the proper volume according the price...

anyway, this shit is malaysia...government increase the ass price, ppl doin business trying to cutting down cost, their mouth keep on sayin, kat kos kat kos...

for food industry, price increase, volume of the food become little...argh==

but for amigo, their pasta really spoil my entire mood and my comment to them...

their pasta just have the speghetti, the sauce, then what ingredient they use u know??

sliced of sausages, white cabbage....WHAT THE HELL FOOD IS THAT!!

Food for the teabreak

2010-09-23T05:40:00.000-07:00

still my fav kind of kueh during the teabreak at Malaysia...

this stall kinda famous at malacca, the chinese, malay, indian, blarr blarrr blarr, ppl will come...
around 2-3pm the stall will be packed and some of the kueh will finish soon...

the fried banana, goreng pisang...

not so nice as the banana not so sweet enough, so is kind of tasteless... :(

the fried greenpeas, this is the best ones...

okayy, the gula malacca-ed donut...

everytime i will buy only the greenpeas and gula malacca donut...

this time bought erm, 7 of them...lol

yummy, feel wna makan those again......

is a heaty food tho...

Human Mutilation

2010-09-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

hmm last sunday my 2nd bro talk about, alien stuff...
but as i know, is really exist until he tell me more of it, i lagi believe...

and area 51 also...
i forgot how we start the topic but it is very very very interesting....

but this the most creepy to me...

human mutilation case in 1994, most likely by the alien...
i don mind if u wana say im erm...kid or what so ever...but then u go read this http://www.alienvideo.net/0805/alien-abduction-mutilation.php

they called the alien "The Greys" u can get it by type The Greys at google...
the greys as normal we know the alien is short, big head, and oval big black eyes...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Greys

even at 1974, we human (the US) send a message in binary codes to the greys, or contacted them...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arecibo_message

after 30yrs like that, 2003 they replied us the message...
how the way they replied us is very interesting, that is crop circle exist, that mean they draw picture of the message at the paddy field and infront of the satelite, that the human kind use the satelite send the msg to them in 1974....
interesting enough?? haha, whats contain in the msg?? here
http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Famo.net%2FContact%2F&h=72603

thats the first msg replied, then another msg in 2004 if not mistaken, msg in in circle and also at paddy field the msg beside have face of the alien...the msg says....

Beware the bearers of FALSE gifts & their BROKEN PROMISES. Much PAIN but still time. BELIEVE. There is GOOD out there.We oppose DECEPTION. Conduit CLOSING (BELL SOUND)

heres there very good explanation http://yowusa.com/et/2003/et-2003-05a/3.shtml

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvtXeoi9QdM&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eA9uvRUUlgY

it is creepy tho...

believe or not believe but just see... ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7uqP46zdsA

then this da breaching area 51, and most of them wana know the alien thingy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_Nt0jgGNek

this da most gan jiong, civilian fly his own plane go to area 51 and shot down, and is fone call during radio...

even alien abduction...

a day out with the boss...lol

2010-09-09T01:43:00.000-07:00

eh hey yea, boss...

my friend boss, yea also my boss lorr...kekeke

before to meet my fren boss from kl, i was goin to mmu pay up the blardy idiot fee, damn i go for industrail training need to pay tuition fee, library fee, IT fee, and hell NO!! STUDEN FUNDS??!! gotta kidding me man... totalled up was RM800...
thats why i was barred from finance dept...
bloody hell...==

after that go to nadeje...
opps, so nice belanja me yea... :p
very paiseh

da green tea flavour crepe...

mine cheese crepe...nicee

but weird, 1 piece make me felt geli and full d...

after that they was not enough and go for capitol sateh cilopppp...

the only for VVIP...hehe

BIIIIGGG plawnn...

hahaha yea plawn...

just no idea why i like to pronounce R to L...i lelly rike you...

compare with another, see how big is that!!

i didnt eat much as later night i have buffet at puteri hotel, i need to ready some...err no, is alot of space for mystomach...haha before buffet need to go settle something first...hehe

Ipad yo!!! and surfing dcm...Drift.com.my ftw!!

as normal, facebook...

zzzzz~

woot, felt wana get one...but sob...

only iphone 4 is possible to get, and waiting maxis to release it tho...

night time go to Puteri Hotel's buffet, the food was horrible, i rather go ramadan bazzar buy than have it at there...

anyway we didnt pay for wat we eat...wahahaha!! i don care, worst food ever....

the food was finish and never top up...diu~

btw is a no star hotel and is dont even like a good resort...DUHHH!!

ps...the crepe pics is just for candy nia...hehe

so enjoy, too bad have no banana crepe ....

new rubber gasket, wahers and new oil...

2010-09-09T01:29:00.000-07:00

hmmm this car have oil leakage at the engine, between rocker cover and erm the upper block have a rubber seal...they called it gasket...??

very compacted engine...everything squizzzzzzzed in...

one of the washer, since is 9yr car and of coz this thing will worn out as they are made of rubber...

this seems to be cleaner but it is gonna change it anyway...

oil stains...

how oily is it...

but previously is much dirty and oily at the engine area, due to 9yrs dust, oil and etc...lol

then current ones is already brought to service center to let the ppl wash it just for rm8 ONLY...

but after wash the engine, how they wash i also dono, as dad brought it go and said they drove it somewhere inside and wash it...

when back home, i saw the engine was...FUHHHHHH new engine siaaaaa...hehe

but after that the engine sound like rotary or boxer engine during it idle and throttle...@@

sad~

but my mech said let it be after after 2-3 days the car run, then will be okay d...

when i heard the engine run is already feel so weird, and throttle it...macam grasscutter sound...tot tot tot tot...

oh my, sakit hati gua...sob sob

the oily stains at the gb...

saw that black round thingy??

that one is already worn out and also can see oil stains there...

fuhh...scary huh...

the rocker cover removed...

sexy sexy inside huh...hehe

this is the second time see this, first time was the timing belt change...

this car also not easy to fix or do something with it, not many ppl will know, just erm only or mayb mostly honda mech will know...

the new washer...black thingy...

old washer...

pic blurred...too bad i forgot to take pic of the gasket rubber...

as too busy chatting with the mech and concentrate wat he;s doin... :p

A person choose to live and to lOve...

twice.

没放下。

im fine.................(actually, no)

忐忑

missin

A.L.O.N.E

doin something just for the person and...

no longer

relation

beer heaven

drink

7/11

i wont forget and i will stay.

away

Emptied.

寂寞寂寞就好

静静就好。。。

neck sore

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not everyone have this kind of mindset, well, i have this, im thinkin about it like that, im not simply taking any relationship, im total serious once im into the relationship, i;ve committed a very worth while and quite long in my life now, but....forget bout that, not to story it...

i really treasure u and the time, everything, good and bad, smooth journey or bumpy roads, this is life, this is what we gonna gone thru, im fed up with bumpy road but yea, im gonna go with it no matter what, im not gonna give up love like you.

everyday, night, im thinkin bout you, every night, i was dream of you, all of my dreams just have you, now, just enough if i can stay in the dream, just more perfect and real life when i open my eyes.

all i know is, i crazily in love with you like no others thing matters to me in my life, you, you , you, just you.

thats why i dont give up, i dont put it down, i decide to hold it on no matter what, no matter i die in car crash or get murdered or last breath die in sleep.

lips skirts all round

green touch...

PREZZY!! new package

只能想念你...

study, drink...

small Project Carbonize

just want .........

drinker, 酒鬼

from a random blog i read...

SoLo

依依不舍...

hoe hoe

doesnt feel want to stay anymore...

ninja burger

ballons in the air...

Candies...

Espresso Mochiatto

new puppy in the house...

vtec solenoid, stabilizer link

Subang burger...

what is it look like??

50% & happy hour

每一天...

i give my all...

Moon...

死

drink, sorrow, run, hide.........

sunseto

drinks, clubs...

shisha, look out point...

hate??

IRRESPONSIBLE...

.......

i need a doctor......

SUEDE !!

sunseto

S30 love

henry kosasih's sorcery NA1 NSX

...

The Season Five

Cny time

Afamosa Safari and cowboy town

ELMOssss...

changed..

bored

check out that chick...

UNWELL...

third day for kl trip...

continue for kl trip...

KL trippu... at Carl's Jr

anothr sunseto...

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