Tuesday, January 31, 2012

when honda meets toyota


just a photoshoot before the cny.

and ohh! happy cny, gong hei fatt choi.
i dont need to story any about of my cny, n.o.t.h.i.n.g about it.
dont need mention about valentine too. ;)

anyway, just a photo shoot before cny, and i just done wrapping the mugen front lip to dry carbon look with a Type One sticker at the middle. right after 4 days, my mom drove the car and scratch the lip, ONCE again...
well, female cant drive. this is fact, although is not majority of them cant drive. fact is fact. ;)
true story.

i was mad, seriously mad about it.
the front lip repainted just right before the 30th night. till now, the front look doesnt look as the picture itself. ;)

the corolla ee90 aka ae92, is my friend's one. he's also a car enthusiast like me. we just student, we enjoy cars and etc. quite budget still.
wait till we grad and get a job. things will be better, maybe i will change my ride. OR something with K related??

Friday, January 27, 2012

twice.

twice of heartbreak.
put me into hell.

dont say twice, once, already feel like dead. twice, worst than dead.
i cant even describe it.

some ppl say, donnt care those not appreciate you, show them how well u live without them.
not i degil or what, once i gone into relationship, im serious to it and goin all for it. givin my everything.

twice of heartbreak, now i feel like a person without heart. no heartbeat. cant feel myself.
less social, less goin out. mostly at home. at home. and at home.
dont have the mood for anything.

i wonder, when i can feel my heartbeat once again.
when i can have someone again? and love until i cant let go anything again?
no idea. i dono.
thats my answer for every question. dono. no idea.

want to feel alive again. who can?

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

没放下。

其实,老实说,我没能放下你的一切。
要说我傻呢,还是什么,我都不介意。

因为我进入太深了。这是没有人能理解。
只是我自己能感受得来。

实话实说,那时也是你把我带回来人生。因为你之前,我也变成像现在那样,一个人没心跳,没感觉,死了的心,不再以一切。而是你慢慢的把我的灵魂带回。

thru the days, weeks, months. im going it all by myself like a dead person.
everyday till now, i miss u like no words can describe my feeling. it is just everywhere.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

im fine.................(actually, no)

i've tried hard, i've try and try and try.
so i failed. i cant get back.

i am not fine, since the day. until a newer year. i...am...not...okay...
im acting fine, im acting happy, im acting im great, but all is just an act.

i just want to voice out from my mind, my ice cold dead heart.
since the day, i never been happy at all. im just a mothafucker down in mood, stressed up person.
so, dont near me, better to leave me alone, i will hurt ppl.
i use to be alone, use to the quietness, use to the quiet fone.

i feel very annoyed when ppl calling me, texting me.
no one really care me, if my family cares me, i cant feel it. sorry.
i caant feel a thing anymore.

i just want to be alone, i just want to do my thing, i just want to stop my studies. i cant take it anymore.
im goin to freak out soon. aarrgghhh!!!
i cant help myself, nor no one can help me, because i cant help myself.
pls, i cant handle anymore thing. when im down, i drink, since the day, i drunk myself. she doesnt know...
she doesnt know shes the big influence of my life, but thats too late, no longer can return, just so what she says...

anyway, life is materialistic, life is cruel. so i am.
i wont be as good as before no more. thanks for saying how shit i am, also thanks to my friend, i never shit on them, but they saying fucking shits stuff on me, thank you for helping me being jerk.

one day, one day i wana go away from this place. cut me loose. i dont want be human, im going to the darkside...
i...am...

i never will return. thanks for the cruel world. im living with this kind of condition since feb 2011. hurt, sad, depress, stress, tensed. soon, will gone mad...



I, WONDER WHY!
WHY, when a person hurt you most, and u love them still, care them still....
thats a thing, i CANT FIGURE OUT!!
PLS, give me some drug, either to kill me, or forget everything...erase everything, even more, FORGET MYSELF

 以后再真心爱一个人,是浪费时间。
我已经绝心,没死心,是心死!断气!

Monday, January 9, 2012

忐忑

心里有个忐忑不安的感觉。

不知为什么,就突然的。

很难受。

好像慌张,担心的感觉。可是我都没慌什么,担心什么。

是不是有什么是发生?第六感来了?

im thinkin...... are u fine?

Monday, January 2, 2012

missin

missin someone, but who???
i myself also dont know who do i miss, just a feelin of a sudden.

A.L.O.N.E

yea! FUCK MY LIFE. YES, FUCK IT!! FUCK SHITT!!