Wednesday, October 26, 2011

静静就好。。。

每天都是自己一个人静静的做自己东西,静静的去上课,一个人驾车,回家。。。
都习惯了,电话也不会响了,只在一边静悄悄的。。。

都习惯了,可是多希望那个人会text我,call我,这是我想象中的啦,也没可能的。


喝杯酒,old cognac, cordon bleu. 

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

neck sore

sigh, feels like old person, neck and shoulder feel unwell.

super sore, is already been like this for more than half a year...shitttzz

wake up from sleep, is there, during the day, is there, sleep, is still there.

worst thing is, sore-ing neck really make me cant sleep, suffering sleepless night.

pop few glass of liquor then just knock me off to bed, or pop 1 or 2 sleeping pills...not really sleeping pills, is like 镇定药...take it, will feel very calm...
best is, cough or flu med... sure come high wan...

last few month, spend rm40 for massage include dono what chinese pills...fuuukkk shyyttt, koyak~~
after a week, comes again...yea i cant stop myself drink cold...

neck sore, shoulder sore, sleepless night, if i cant sleep during the night, i will get real fucked up...
cant find any suitable pillow and bed...
and my mind not with me at all,  same to my heart, just away to 1 person, thinkin bout her most of time...

oh, imagine, 8am class, u cant sit still, and u are concentrating in class, u sufferin uncomfortable neck early in the morning, turnin here and there, left right front back, den massage ur own shoulder neck...
i wonder ppl at behind will get annoyed or not...

night, i doesnt have good time this year, goin thru by my own, thank you god...i <3 u

Monday, October 17, 2011

My Happiest Moment



was my happiest time of all, 2009/11/7 on my birthday, 1 of happiest day, happiest time, bahagia life...

she's the one in my life, she make it all right happen on my birthday, thats two years ago, i still can remember everything happen right in my head. feel very touching also.
she's just like the one in my life, she's affect everything in my life, cheerful, sad, and everything. Im appreciate everything what i've gone thru with her, im fortunate met her in my life too.

till...2010 her birthday, just bring her out a day for date, she just prefer something relax time, just with me during her birthday.

this is one of the potrait sunset that i love the most, well, shes inside, thats why im super liking this photo. So do her. Also one of the best photo for the day, she dress up real pretty, just for me, and im happy to look at her. i just will smile and smile in my heart when sees her.

i feel really happy seeing this photo and thought of alot of things for the day and everything we've gone thru.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

< 3

"翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現"。

这一段,一直在我脑海里徘徊几天了,而且我也翻了,看了我们的照片不止几天。想了你不只几天,是算月的,天天,每个时候都‘挂’着你。

认也认了半年了,想也想念你半年了。受不了也承受着。

Friday, October 14, 2011

思念

又想你了。

一闭上眼睛,看到你,脑里想起你。

我没能放下,放不下,不放下。

太重要。不舍得。

而且,习惯了每天这样。以前,不会有睡觉困难,劲像不会酸痛,没黑眼圈。

现在都有了。

只能在梦里见到你,靠近你。






我就是不会,没能,放下你。我只能呆在这里,无知的等。

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

this not everyone get it

不是每一次都是要男生主动追求,男生也有会累的时候,他也期盼你的好感向前互动。不是每一段恋情都期待着对方对你有多好,也得看看自己的努力付出了多少,把爱放对了地方没?期待对方欣赏你的同时,也学着如何从自己的角度欣赏你的另一半。没有绝对相配的两个人,但从决定看着对方肯定的双眼决定走出下一步人生新路时,告诉自己,我会努力着,无论对方缺点/优点我该扩大我包容的尺度,容纳下他所以的该与不该。每一天疼多一点,爱多一些。永远都要记得当初我们是怎么感动着对方,相守相惜相互爱戴。
 
 not everyone have this kind of mindset, well, i have this, im thinkin about it like that, im not simply taking any relationship,  im total serious once im into the relationship, i;ve committed a very worth while and quite long in my life now, but....
forget bout that, not to story it...
i really treasure u and the time, everything, good and bad, smooth journey or bumpy roads, this is life, this is what we gonna gone thru, im fed up with bumpy road but yea, im gonna go with it no matter what, im not gonna give up love like you.

everyday, night, im thinkin bout you, every night, i was dream of you, all of my dreams just have you, now, just enough if i can stay in the dream, just more perfect and real life when i open my eyes.
all i know is, i crazily in love with you like no others thing matters to me in my life, you, you , you, just you.
thats why i dont give up, i dont put it down, i decide to hold it on no matter what, no matter i die in car crash or get murdered or last breath die in sleep.

Friday, October 7, 2011

lips skirts all round

this time, before went installing, i ownself diy-ed change the front grill to the RS ver.

next, went to J Mode at cheng do my front mugen 99-00 front lips, side skirt, rx2 rear...
actually wednesday gonna settle is right away, but side skirt haven come, then thursday do, half way, they realise they lost or cant find my front mugen lips, said thursday night gonna settle for me, but til friday noon just settle...
imagine that push back, delay time, sigh, all my planning and my time...

then, today friday just went to painting, at first my father want to repaint it, so meantime i go do the skirting my own, and repaint it to new colour, but father unhappy, so stick to silver...sieeennn
also thought that, current colour got a lil fade but doesnt mind it, just wanted to spray the front lip, side and rear skirt back to silver, also side mirror, but then mati mati want whole car repaint...

whatever lah, just sent the car in today, next two week will freshly out from oven... *finger cross*
next two week, new semester start, no car to drive, if they can make it for me will be good, well, dont want hope so much, im a person giving much of hopes, after that, disappointed, crank up, unhappy...

now, lowered already, UR struts bar, front mugen lips, side skirt and rear rx2, looking great...
still have somemore in my list, exterior mods left some minor and major in quite costy...
project tho, canot say out...hehe keep secret...

wait after repaint, gonna carbonize my front mugen lips, and hopefully they will find Red H emblem for front grill and rear trunk...
modding cars, once u start, ur financial will go down super low, pocket gets big hole, then u can never stop modding...
the truth ;P hehe

rear do need something and two, a lil empty there i know....


in picture with black grill looks great, but in person, not nice at all...dilemma~~
at first i thought paint the RS grill then carbon it, once i installed it my own, i doubt it, well, after repaint whole car, i will carbonize the lips, and i will smoked something too...hehe

car is lowered, but not enough LOW, not enough stance, with current height and mugen lips, i will scrape things also... =P if i go LOw with adjustable, tyte stance, i will scrape every speed bump i went...
i also thought of doin a aluminium V-lip, something like V-lip but will cover under the front lip and a bit of lower section bumper, if scrape, just scrape the aluminium, my front lip wont get scratch.

even my mom or dad will drive my car sometime, they wont know it, parking or speed bump, parking went too front and will scrape the divider. if is so, i will be freak out by then.

after repaint, gonna solve my front suspension making sound issue, and alignment it. i doesnt know after change lowered spring needed to redo alignment.


yeap, new headlight, erm, not new, is used item and this pair of headlight does looks new, seriously, even compared to my old yellowish fogged ones. i change it also due to left side broken, i got it good deal from one of forummer @ Team Es Malaysia, cheap, as he change his to the RS type. nahh, i dont want the RS type, i gonna do something for the headlight later on. hehe, as i mentioned before, then she will looks even stunning and gorgeous with pair of sparkling crystal hot of eyes... ;)

i spend alot on this project, some by me, some with sponsored. ;P

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Sunday, October 2, 2011

green touch...

hmm whats that?? hehe

ride improved wayyy alot, alot less body roll, can go much steady speed thru corners, even drive on straight, ride much more steady...
macam kereta beso...