Thursday, December 29, 2011

doin something just for the person and...

well, on my last year (2010) bday. i got scolded by my parent and my brothers for not spending time with families during my bday.

the story is, i willing to sacrifise even my family just to make the day of my birthday for the person...well, her...to celebrate with me. im didnt mention that during the time, coz i dont want ppl unhappy about it and will make misunderstanding. so i just keep it my own.
im writing now in my blog just because so long didnt blog, and just want to blog out from my heart.

who will get scolded during birthday, aint good shit tho.
sigh, anyway, how stupid is it, i still sacrifise everything for love if is worth it.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

no longer

没在像以前那种像样

Thursday, December 1, 2011

relation

just like mom says, human between that have blood connection, how they quarrel, how they fight, how the fuck they scold each other and leave, they still have the blood connection. one day, they will come together.

parent and kids, brothers and sisters. BUT, not husband and wife. Not among friends.

how i treat my friends, i look up upon high to them. same to my girlfriend. (not i dont have gf)
one of my friend this year went to US to proceed his study at Fresno. yea, he's a very good friend of mine, we talk alot, in everything, by how we think how we feel. that is Bros thing.
dont mistake, thats not gay for freak ppl like u ass mind think. ;) cheerio

we spend our time along, since primary 5-6 and following by secondary f1-5 until we went college/uni. we went diff uni, but when he return back to hometown, we do lepak, hang out. or i went to kl for holiday and stay at his place. we have fun, we share every good and bad stuff. everything. we chat about girls, how pretty how hot how awesome how ugly is the chicks. we chat how we feel about the girl, that i actually like/love and the girl he like.
the girl he like, too bad he cant make his move, because he gonna go to US and few others reason. *ehem* bro, you chicken out la...hehehe

anyway, back to he's goin to US, no one company me drive up to KLIA. another friend just following me behind my car, coz he gonna go back to KL for his study. Apparently, i drive go and back my own.
early in the morning, hours before the sun comes up, i've already wake up, i forgot 4 or 5am, start my drive to KLIA, from my house to alor gajah AMJ highway to north south highway to exist 215 and lastlyl to KLIA.
dark, alone and rainy drive. all along my drive, i misses her too. i wish shes with me together company me the drive and send my friend for farewell.
my parent dont agree, not allowing me to drive, but i INSIST to. i reached KLIA, have breakfast with him and his family, then have photograph, but no tears that for sure, watch him go thru the gate and elevator.
well, i miss my friend alot, we spend time alot.
he do say 1 thing, "i go US, cant company u at malacca already, u gonna be alone, your that 'fucking' brader yea u wont find him also la."

im a scorpio, scorpio looks high upon ppl surrounding them. thats me, i look high on them, i put high hope, i do everything for them.
in the end, what do i get? oh, im not saying him... im not saying in return or payback something.

a simple word, APPRECIATE. where is it??
what i do, what i gave up just for that, what i sacrifise. in the end, i lose and they win. thaats Lose Win situation...

another, i want to put another thing, just forgot and doesnt know how to put it properly. sigh, nvm, forget bout it. that one also one of my cb friend since primary 5, together with that friend went to US,  and oh, also same with that "fucking brader" i mention too. that cb and fucking, both damn cb wan la.... damn good in using ppl.
both damn good pair together, but both of them very tak ngam after f5... lol

we know, we know...
simple, just dont care lah.

and if want say about gf, same thing, no blood related. want come then come, want go then go.
but me, if i really really love and already put myheart in, i decide for the relationship, i never have doubt i should go on or not. since i've decide with you and relationship with you, i have no regret.
thats two times, the 1st very cb wan. the 2nd, im not blaming you, just, yea im not good, but try to think, what i;ve done to you taking care of you. when u need help.
dont say about my behavior my character.
well, this thing too much to say, i also will make it even wrong later on....



i've already very very very loved before. thats her, mh. now i cant feel my heart and feel myself anymore. best describe is, a dead heart and a lived dead human. if can understand.
for some ppl or some friend, they asked, hey, why u less go out already, wheres your girlfriend? or hey, why u came alone, wheres your girlfriend? my simple answer is, oh, shes busy. / oh, this time we quite busy of our studies, less have time go out have fun.... etc
biggest lie and lame reasons.

i've look at so much of girl, 1 thing is, i didnt feel anything...like...初恋的感觉!or 想爱的感觉。
all is, nothing empty inside. only night time is, i feel sore and soury in my heart when i misses her.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

beer heaven


i broke my rules, no drinnking before sunset, means day time...
i broke it, morning woke up, noon, night...

then last week, before MY-NPL (Malaysian National Paintball League), on thursday, after my noon class, i went down to town find my friends, they waited me at dp.
once im there, they said they at Overtime, i was like...whaaaaattt??!! 3pm something middle of afternoon weh!

on my way walk to Overtime, the Dataran Pahlawan field is preparing for the Paintball even, MY-NPL final round for this 2011 season, me and my team will be there, we gotten 4th place on the Final round, the fourth round. In 2011 season, overall we won 2nd placing. For Street Mobsters!! huaattt ahhh!!

back to story...
they already drinking, well i ordered 1 pint...free another 1...
so that noon, i took 1litre of Starker, then went back campus with them continue our class...
heck, i was a lil drunk, tutor asking me stuff, i was like...errr what????

nowadays i drink more than other year, even okay with beer, but good beer lah...
can say im social or really alcoholic already, even my mom says i really drinker dah....
because of you, im not blaming but yes because of you, i drink and drink and drink

Sunday, November 13, 2011

drink

this year, drink more than usual and previous and other year...

just went WCA, free tax area, drink diff type and try diff type of beer like nobody business, try some cocktails.
those cocktails price arent really that cheap...

now i really enjoy drink beers, except carlsberg, tiger and mayb heineken

Sunday, November 6, 2011

7/11

is just a day...

i've already decide it, im not facin it, i will stay at home, close my eye, till 8th Nov comes...
is just a day, just a day... nothing for it anymore...

1 of the day on December, i will do something...
because 1 of the day is just important to me, i cant do so much, but i try to do as little as i could.
l... y..

i wont forget and i will stay.



although im weaken, but keep tryin and tryin stay up right, standing, not to fall and im not movin no where.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

away

next week wont be at malacca, will on air off from mlk...

Emptied.

no one understand nor unable to feel at all.

just like me, i unable to feel, cant feel anything at all.

is already in stage of worst and dead. cant feel anything. worst stage of all.

just like the heart already dead or empty, heartless, no heart at all.



wana look?? is actually empty...

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

寂寞寂寞就好

寂寞寂寞就好。习惯就好,不习惯也是要习惯。

爱车人,像我,爱车好过爱个女人。
now, car is my everything... im very sayang my car, although not perfect enough, but i still sayang her (my car).  just like i love her, shes not perfect, i like her, her everything...no regrets at all...
being a fool or stupid den stupid, im fine with it...
simple, and good. but actually is complicate and madness.


慢慢的经常在家自己喝酒。

on 7th nov this year, im not lookin forward anyway, im being right person last year. but this year, not at all, mayb im gonna sleep on my bed til 8th nov just wake up as usual, go class.
yea on 7th nov is holiday, 'spend my time with family' (actually just at home), simple and super duper bored, since will super duper bored, i'll tend get very frusfrated... (well, problematic person, crazy)

dont need think so much, 7th nov, unless got so great person bring me out and party like mindfuck.
OR, mayb i go out have drive at night, speeding, tackling corner with high speed, car losses control, accident and crash to cliff or whatever then die on the spot. who knows, anything can happen...
because, in my ba zi (in mandarin) the fortune life teller, already proven, i not really have 'smooth journey' for this year, and i would get hurt, bleed, crazy plenty bleeding, might die, or get hurt or cacat or whatever...

even, got one time i went movida drinking with my paintball teammate, Street Mobsters, one of their friend at there, he can fortune tell some, but those he said, and compare as i know, is actually right and about the same. especially i said  i will involve in accident and will hav major injury bleeding non stop.
he say, i should drive slow, no more fast drive speeding.
i just dono when will be, or never will happen if i drive slow or....etc etc
i've already let go everything, surrender my life to god, i dont look and take anything as very important, even i look lightly on my life and everything. i don care it anymore, want how then how lah... since this year 2011 early of the year, feb or march like that. i;ve already be like that.
exam, subject fail then fail... don care d... i also no heart to study edi...
just like a useless rubbish rotten kid...

well, born on the day, die also on the day. easy, solve everything, my parent dont need waste any money after that, selesai 1 problem caused by fked up kid (me)

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

静静就好。。。

每天都是自己一个人静静的做自己东西,静静的去上课,一个人驾车,回家。。。
都习惯了,电话也不会响了,只在一边静悄悄的。。。

都习惯了,可是多希望那个人会text我,call我,这是我想象中的啦,也没可能的。


喝杯酒,old cognac, cordon bleu. 

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

neck sore

sigh, feels like old person, neck and shoulder feel unwell.

super sore, is already been like this for more than half a year...shitttzz

wake up from sleep, is there, during the day, is there, sleep, is still there.

worst thing is, sore-ing neck really make me cant sleep, suffering sleepless night.

pop few glass of liquor then just knock me off to bed, or pop 1 or 2 sleeping pills...not really sleeping pills, is like 镇定药...take it, will feel very calm...
best is, cough or flu med... sure come high wan...

last few month, spend rm40 for massage include dono what chinese pills...fuuukkk shyyttt, koyak~~
after a week, comes again...yea i cant stop myself drink cold...

neck sore, shoulder sore, sleepless night, if i cant sleep during the night, i will get real fucked up...
cant find any suitable pillow and bed...
and my mind not with me at all,  same to my heart, just away to 1 person, thinkin bout her most of time...

oh, imagine, 8am class, u cant sit still, and u are concentrating in class, u sufferin uncomfortable neck early in the morning, turnin here and there, left right front back, den massage ur own shoulder neck...
i wonder ppl at behind will get annoyed or not...

night, i doesnt have good time this year, goin thru by my own, thank you god...i <3 u

Monday, October 17, 2011

My Happiest Moment



was my happiest time of all, 2009/11/7 on my birthday, 1 of happiest day, happiest time, bahagia life...

she's the one in my life, she make it all right happen on my birthday, thats two years ago, i still can remember everything happen right in my head. feel very touching also.
she's just like the one in my life, she's affect everything in my life, cheerful, sad, and everything. Im appreciate everything what i've gone thru with her, im fortunate met her in my life too.

till...2010 her birthday, just bring her out a day for date, she just prefer something relax time, just with me during her birthday.

this is one of the potrait sunset that i love the most, well, shes inside, thats why im super liking this photo. So do her. Also one of the best photo for the day, she dress up real pretty, just for me, and im happy to look at her. i just will smile and smile in my heart when sees her.

i feel really happy seeing this photo and thought of alot of things for the day and everything we've gone thru.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

< 3

"翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現"。

这一段,一直在我脑海里徘徊几天了,而且我也翻了,看了我们的照片不止几天。想了你不只几天,是算月的,天天,每个时候都‘挂’着你。

认也认了半年了,想也想念你半年了。受不了也承受着。

Friday, October 14, 2011

思念

又想你了。

一闭上眼睛,看到你,脑里想起你。

我没能放下,放不下,不放下。

太重要。不舍得。

而且,习惯了每天这样。以前,不会有睡觉困难,劲像不会酸痛,没黑眼圈。

现在都有了。

只能在梦里见到你,靠近你。






我就是不会,没能,放下你。我只能呆在这里,无知的等。

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

this not everyone get it

不是每一次都是要男生主动追求,男生也有会累的时候,他也期盼你的好感向前互动。不是每一段恋情都期待着对方对你有多好,也得看看自己的努力付出了多少,把爱放对了地方没?期待对方欣赏你的同时,也学着如何从自己的角度欣赏你的另一半。没有绝对相配的两个人,但从决定看着对方肯定的双眼决定走出下一步人生新路时,告诉自己,我会努力着,无论对方缺点/优点我该扩大我包容的尺度,容纳下他所以的该与不该。每一天疼多一点,爱多一些。永远都要记得当初我们是怎么感动着对方,相守相惜相互爱戴。
 
 not everyone have this kind of mindset, well, i have this, im thinkin about it like that, im not simply taking any relationship,  im total serious once im into the relationship, i;ve committed a very worth while and quite long in my life now, but....
forget bout that, not to story it...
i really treasure u and the time, everything, good and bad, smooth journey or bumpy roads, this is life, this is what we gonna gone thru, im fed up with bumpy road but yea, im gonna go with it no matter what, im not gonna give up love like you.

everyday, night, im thinkin bout you, every night, i was dream of you, all of my dreams just have you, now, just enough if i can stay in the dream, just more perfect and real life when i open my eyes.
all i know is, i crazily in love with you like no others thing matters to me in my life, you, you , you, just you.
thats why i dont give up, i dont put it down, i decide to hold it on no matter what, no matter i die in car crash or get murdered or last breath die in sleep.

Friday, October 7, 2011

lips skirts all round

this time, before went installing, i ownself diy-ed change the front grill to the RS ver.

next, went to J Mode at cheng do my front mugen 99-00 front lips, side skirt, rx2 rear...
actually wednesday gonna settle is right away, but side skirt haven come, then thursday do, half way, they realise they lost or cant find my front mugen lips, said thursday night gonna settle for me, but til friday noon just settle...
imagine that push back, delay time, sigh, all my planning and my time...

then, today friday just went to painting, at first my father want to repaint it, so meantime i go do the skirting my own, and repaint it to new colour, but father unhappy, so stick to silver...sieeennn
also thought that, current colour got a lil fade but doesnt mind it, just wanted to spray the front lip, side and rear skirt back to silver, also side mirror, but then mati mati want whole car repaint...

whatever lah, just sent the car in today, next two week will freshly out from oven... *finger cross*
next two week, new semester start, no car to drive, if they can make it for me will be good, well, dont want hope so much, im a person giving much of hopes, after that, disappointed, crank up, unhappy...

now, lowered already, UR struts bar, front mugen lips, side skirt and rear rx2, looking great...
still have somemore in my list, exterior mods left some minor and major in quite costy...
project tho, canot say out...hehe keep secret...

wait after repaint, gonna carbonize my front mugen lips, and hopefully they will find Red H emblem for front grill and rear trunk...
modding cars, once u start, ur financial will go down super low, pocket gets big hole, then u can never stop modding...
the truth ;P hehe

rear do need something and two, a lil empty there i know....


in picture with black grill looks great, but in person, not nice at all...dilemma~~
at first i thought paint the RS grill then carbon it, once i installed it my own, i doubt it, well, after repaint whole car, i will carbonize the lips, and i will smoked something too...hehe

car is lowered, but not enough LOW, not enough stance, with current height and mugen lips, i will scrape things also... =P if i go LOw with adjustable, tyte stance, i will scrape every speed bump i went...
i also thought of doin a aluminium V-lip, something like V-lip but will cover under the front lip and a bit of lower section bumper, if scrape, just scrape the aluminium, my front lip wont get scratch.

even my mom or dad will drive my car sometime, they wont know it, parking or speed bump, parking went too front and will scrape the divider. if is so, i will be freak out by then.

after repaint, gonna solve my front suspension making sound issue, and alignment it. i doesnt know after change lowered spring needed to redo alignment.


yeap, new headlight, erm, not new, is used item and this pair of headlight does looks new, seriously, even compared to my old yellowish fogged ones. i change it also due to left side broken, i got it good deal from one of forummer @ Team Es Malaysia, cheap, as he change his to the RS type. nahh, i dont want the RS type, i gonna do something for the headlight later on. hehe, as i mentioned before, then she will looks even stunning and gorgeous with pair of sparkling crystal hot of eyes... ;)

i spend alot on this project, some by me, some with sponsored. ;P

*photo deleted*

Sunday, October 2, 2011

green touch...

hmm whats that?? hehe

ride improved wayyy alot, alot less body roll, can go much steady speed thru corners, even drive on straight, ride much more steady...
macam kereta beso...

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

PREZZY!! new package

new package just arrived just now noon...

wwuueeeeee~~ happy


guess what inside??

lets open it up...hoho

excited...



RS grill for my E, gotten it from one of forummer from Malaysia Team Es
hmmm carbon it??hehe

Monday, September 19, 2011

只能想念你...


only misses you everyday...
no one can understand it, just my own...
every single day, every single time, just can feel u are in my mind, my heart, think of you, missin you...

i've fall on you deeply truely...
well, i never back it up, but i just stay, i will just stay here......
u took my heart...

Thursday, September 15, 2011

study, drink...


yalah, so good life, drinking red wine and study...
but then im not focusing or concentrate in study at all...

i drink, just easier to sleep later...
drinnk drink drink drink, been having sleeping problem for a time already.
with drinking, or sleeping pills

this just my life...fml...

missin you <3

Monday, September 5, 2011

small Project Carbonize

Purposely put the flash light...

first actually during the holiday, the front license plate dropped off, i have no idea how.
i found it after the day i pick up my car at car park, the license plate was placed on my hood, doesnt matter, mayb someone dropped it, is still in piece, i drove the car for a night without front license plate, even with police seeing me drive without front license plate... =P

nothing at all...

at nite when i return back home, i took my 1 whole meter carbon sticker, slowly cut the alphabets and numbering 1 by 1 with my own pair of hand and blade...
doin it during late night, about 2 hours i finished it off...

and just yesterday i purposely took off the rear license plate and finish off the rear plate to carbon style...
front is the success, the rear plate kinda big, got 1 part have some small bubble, nevertheless, i don care lah...
i doesnt have pair of good crafting hands, is still good that i finish it off... ;)

well, is pain in the ass cutting the alphabets and numbering 1 by 1, the measurement cutting wont be accurate, doesnt mind if it small, once paste it, i can cut it all again then will be more neat and nice...
this carbon sticker is not original 3M, lousy quality, was bought it 1meter x 1 meter for rm68, thats why so cheap, because isnt original 3M quality...
last time i spend rm50 for 3M carbon for a part small size, now i still have it...


next, gonna do the side mirror and some of the interior like for the center climate control part...

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

just want .........

just want a person to love and being love...


just surrender with life

Saturday, July 23, 2011

drinker, 酒鬼

mom say about me, drinker, 酒鬼....

coz quite frequent drinking, especially go out drink...

this and that..

then, at home still have 3 bottle of beer and alot of liquor...

that 3 bottle beer, tak sanggup wana drink unless can get source if it...












now, i drink more frequent than usual, more than usual...

Sunday, July 3, 2011

from a random blog i read...

当年龄随着增长..
理想,梦想也变得不一样..
会不会是人长大了..
变得现实了.
明白这世界其实真的有很多做不到的事..
才会开始放弃心里的那些不实际的念头..
其实,世界上有很多东西是改变不了的..
不是每件事都能如愿以偿..
所以...我们应该选择改變自己
是这样吗..?

虽然说我们都有自己的坚持
希望自己的生活会更好
但不是每件事都是能如愿以尝..
每天努力的扮演着不同的角色..
有时真的会累..

我们似乎总在错过……
错过简单快乐的生活……
最后当你失去时,
你才发现,
原来那其实正是你想要的。

一个人的快乐,不是因为他拥有的多,而是因为他计较的少。
 
(from the blog owner)
 
 
 
 
 
(heres the comment...oh comment is important to the blog owner, so both of them is in relationship...) ;)

理想,梦想变现实了?so we 应该选择改變自己?错过简单快乐的生活?

Dreams are so good, Dreams are free (=
but lots ppl in现实life, they started to改變自己's point of view and so they 改變自己's Dream.. become lower lower and lower, and turns out starting to think of错过简单快乐的生活tat use to have before LOL..

I didnt blame those ppl about why they are thinking like these, but obviously ppl afraid of chasing their dreams simply not because of failure, is because of disappointments! And causes them start judging and suspecting their own strength and at the end of the day, they GiVe Up!!

Life might simple but happy wont last forever..
Never say 最后你才发现,原来那其实正是你想要的...meaning your life before is wad u wanted.. u still have a looooong way to go (=

a human being that live without 理想,梦想, they are living like a dead body.. the end of the day, most of them will wondering why are they living so far in life..

some day when u gonna die, u may only realize, 失去自己的理想,梦想,is the worst thing that happened in our life!!

what ever that past are past!! Don't look back!!
I may 对号入座,i may no 资格say such word here, but i wanna tell ya is, what's gonna be in future are more important than any other thing! and future depend how u react now..

自己的坚持might有时真的会累! another thing i want u to know tat YOU ARE FUCKING NOT ALONE!!! YOUR LIFE AINT JUST ABOUT ME!!! YOU YOURSELF UNDERSTAND IT EITHER!!! THEY ARE TRUE FRENS OUT THERE SINCERELY WANTED U TO BE GOOD AND THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR U EVEN WHEN U ARE DOWN!!!

LOTS OF PPL OUT THERE MIGHT WAITING FOR YOUR FAILURE AND WAITING TO STEP ON U OR LAUGH AT U! BUT PPL WHO ARE GONNA STAY AND STAND BY U, AT THAT MOMENT, THOU THEY ARE FEW, BUT THE FEW ARE ENOUGH FOR U TO LET U KNOW THEY ARE UR TRUEEEEEEEEEE FRIENDS!!!

Problems we facing now are the problems other's gonna face in future.. We step in the Reality world bit earlier than others, am not stabbing any or offending any, yet those who still under a nice comfort environment "talking" about others who fight for their life for survive on their own??LOL...

"When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.Learn from your past. Begin to live in here and now. And learn to live with each other in LOVE"

NOTHING'S GONNA 错过 (= UNLESS U STOP MOVING (=
 
 
 
 
 
so what u think about??
for me, i like what the comment said...hmm now my mind sudden blank, dono what to say...sigh wth ==

Thursday, June 23, 2011

SoLo

now, most of time, errr can be said all of the time im solo...

means, im alone all the time...

happy? u think about it...
i never want to be like that and i never will chose it either...

ppl do need a 'station'...erm i should say shoulder.....-.-

no idea what to say........
bye, never been good anyway....

been very hot tempered, very moody, up down mood, just like heavy wave...
come and goes, only my family members got my temper coz when i at home, i prefer 'untouch', mean, dont ask me to do anything. i prefer to settle down and cool down and doin nothing...
if can, i just want to talk to only somebody, but anyway no more somebody...

times will come, i know it...times will come...

it is tough to wait, super tough...i never like to wait but i need to...

anyway, 'ethanol' is the best anticeptic to me, lately been drinking alot, make myself high, easy to sleep, sleep better...
now suffering shoulder and neck sore, due to unable to sleep properly...is been some months already...
never been good, i guess thats the reason im so hot tempered, so easy got lighted off or burn off...


Friday, June 17, 2011

依依不舍...

后悔for每一个东西。。。

可是现在要说的是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


自从那天上飞机,爬楼梯上飞机的时候, 我往后看,依依不舍,想的是 #。
在飞机里,又在想,又睡不下,给点钱交些酒,又来罐醉自己,就得睡了两个小时罢了。。。








....





最后一天,依依不舍那边,不想回来,可是有一样东西让我要回去。。。
现在呢,我想要去那边,逃!
真的,我不想呆在这里了, 我想跟我爸说, 我要退学,退mmu,不想再大马了。。。
可是相对不起我爸,为了我这没用浪费钱。。。
我承认我没用。。。


ps to 你/     其实。。。。。

Monday, June 6, 2011

hoe hoe


miss all this things, especially hoegaarden, so cheap i got a carton just for...erm 60+ i think...
imported beer mah...
if the local made cooper or toohey or others...just 30-40 or 50 for a carton...
nice, everyday a beer is nice, especially at nite...

doesnt feel want to stay anymore...

this time came back is because something or someone...
yea too special but then i dono...i not sure about it...

if really is okay then im staying, if not i think i will make my choice to move away from Malaysia.
i've tried a different environment, yea that for sure is not Malaysia...
just doesnt know why day by day i dont like Malaysia...

missin there, my uncle, aunty and my cousins...

UWA perhaps??


i doesnt feel want to go back my new semester today, 6/6/2011...
i just after my holiday, tested different place...
if you really missin me, i will stay.....
*abit emotional now* so will blog until here with a pic....


Burswood sunset

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

ninja burger

this was long time ago already...
when i also lupa....

6 type of flavour, but only few can taste bit diff lah


shuriken nugget...cute eh

oh this, not from ninja burger, but damn chun bak kut teh....
crazy awesome taste, we 3 person eat, two pot of dry and soup bak kut teh, both also 2 person volume...
alot...but still nice to eat so much because is so freaking naaaiisssssss

ballons in the air...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Candies...



free candies, anyone?? ;P

Espresso Mochiatto

this cup of coffee, from Khaki Coffee

have it with my uncle, and ehem, really small, bo syok...

Friday, May 6, 2011

new puppy in the house...


Youta-chan have new haircut... make him looks cute and adorable, but i still want him to have long hair...
but is hard...~.~
he's long coat chi hua hua...

that puppy isnt mine, is the doctor lee's daughter's new puppy...
so cute, big diff when i carry both of em, of coz the new puppy is cute and active but i love Youta more, although he's lazy but he's CRAZY...
like me??hmmm....i guess so...

feel wana have the hairy puppy stay with us for few days...
Youta "small hearted" puppy, scare of the new pup....stupid~

so tupid~

vtec solenoid, stabilizer link

 the small thingy, vtec solenoid, cause my entire engine covered with oil...
i guess the oil leaking prob is gone for now, as that time changed the rocker valve cover gasket and oil leaking is still there, after tighten the washer, is still leak a lil...

i dont like to see the engine black black oily oily, really not nice to see...
my mech discover where the source is, changed the solenoid gasket and done....
also clean the oil stains at the block and gb a lil...

before that i wipe off few oily part and back of my palm kena lecur abit by the exhaust manifold metal cover...
now got a lil tattooed at the back of my hand...=(

stabilizer link

doesnt seems the kookk kookk sound is gone, but it handle harder and sturdier...
seems like no diff...
the sound only have when i go over some hump, sometime yes sometime no, also uneven road...

now still sourcing sport spring...

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Subang burger...

the double, i think is mushroom...just about rm5+ -

The Jumbo Hotdog, forgotten what flavour d...
i have this for so long already, few months back....

looks geli, but u see the double, 4 piece chicken and a piece of egg....
thats the awesomeness having this, super awesome...and 100% satisfaction

what is it look like??

yeng?? funny??

50% & happy hour

rarely starbucks will have this kind of promo and chance at starbucks, and nasib baik i have the chance for this as is only til 30th and only for weekdays...
only for frappucino...

i ordered black mocha, is kind of sweet, yea mocha ma...
normal price RM15.50 + RM1.80 for (additional Hazelnut/vanilla/caramel syrup) then happy hour (50% off) so 1 venti just RM8.65

cheap....
also, long time didnt drink and drink edi make my mood better.... ;)

left, mine Dark Mocha, right, JavaChip Frappucinoh~
not mine....

in the pic, behind that couch have 3 hot chicks...hehe

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

每一天...

每一天,就过着with沉重的心情...

每一天,没笑容...

每一天,没开心过...

每一天,伤心的伤心,没心情,脑里只有一样东西...


可是我不懂还能不能,haihh,真的是不懂...

学校的assignment做不出,我觉得,有些人会说我就是酱,每次不会做...那我不懂要怎么说了...

我就是酱没用...废才!

就是废才!

这个感觉好难受,要怎么暂停呢?

Saturday, April 23, 2011

i give my all...

i wish i can drop or PENG to the floor right away and pengsan there till next day.......


peng there, the head hit on the floor...boooom,, then next day parent wake me up and ask, hey what u doin on the floor....

my head already koyak, koyak more or less, is still no difference, as it really koyak already...

why i let it be?? coz i give it all....

i feel worth for it, although is not worth, once i give it, i cant take it back already......

i give it....

cz i know it...

is from my true heart...

thats all...



josh is nt the josh u know already...
when the real josh is back?? i dono...
until mh there...

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Moon...

beautiful moon, i wish i can stare u all night long, looking at you, enjoy you and the beauty of the night...

hmm feel like playing the song and sing it, Frank Sinatra - New York, New York...

hmm, how nice if is Tokyo, Tokyo??

last night, hmm i should say before the night, after i shoot for sunset, i didnt wait for the sunset finish then off i went to swimming, i swim and swim, realise the sunset getting awesomer and awesomer....
heck, darn regret left early...

when i enjoy the sunset, i walk around, try diff angle, the sea breeze really calm me, i feel like close my eye and lying down at the beach...
the sea breeze blow all, everything that really stress me out, blow off from my mind...
hmm, now i do feel wana go to the beach again, although my house just near by beach, but that beach, is like 沙漠...dessert...
alot ppl like to go there...

i only go to pantai kundur, but kinda worry about safety as im alone, i hate to be alone...
always love to enjoy sunset with somebody...special...
hmmm the first time, hmm date? after that went to pantai kundur, sitting there chat, joke around, feel love...
okay stop the story...

after i swim for sometime, i get up check my fone, then saw the sky is dark, the other side is sea too, just beside only, then i saw thunder and something big...really BIG, and round and orange in colour...
my mind was, "errrr sunset is behind me, then this looks like sun, but heck, sunset is behind me!!"

eventually, is a moon lar, im not that stupid....
too bad, camera is in car, i just wearing swimming trunk, i wana rush to my car grab my cam but then lazy, then just jump off to the pool again...
as i didnt hav tripod too, so i cant catch the best moment...

after that, fast fast change cloth, drive back home, never eat, grab my big ass tripod go outside shoot the moon....

this the shot after i swim and somewhere beside the pool, more than a sec, can see a lil senget as i position the camera on my car...
but then before this, the moon was half and blocked by cloud and even bigger....and positioned even LOWer....

not really good angle, as at my house...
yea my lousy skill...
the moon doesnt looks what suppose....

this

OR

this??
both also not???

i like this the most, what the moon suppose to look like...
hmm this is the part the setting play...


i...love...you... <3

Monday, April 18, 2011

我很自私

不能看人家开心...

我一个人

没开心过

要我开心是很难

我要的东西,是很难也很简单

我只是要一个....

是我永远永远的承诺,我已经给的承诺,到现在我没放松它...

今天,梦到,梦里.........我不懂要怎么说...

一起来,就好辛苦,好辛苦,很想像女生们一哭就哭就好了...

心好辛苦,好痛苦,好疼痛....

我要怎么说??

真的很难受....难受啊!!

起身后,开电脑,看到一些东西..........

让到我....................

能看到,平时不做的,都有做,平时不去,都去,平时没有的,都有....

我呢?平时不喝那么多,我现在喝很多,喝到不醒人事,平时不痛,现在就痛到要死,平时不去,现在就不去 / 就会要去....


每个人都不懂,不知道,只是我一个人,静静就好了。自己痛自己难受自己痛苦没人知道....

我就是这样传情......
没人知道,算了吧....

只想闭上眼睛,安息就好了.......

drink, sorrow, run, hide.........

recent, i drink more than normal...

i drink alone, i drink alot...i drink at night, i cant sleep at night, every night i cant sleep, i cant close my eye, because i scare....

i scare to face it...

i just run away, i cant take it....

i just hide...

mayb i need something later on......

mayb u wont recognise who i am later on..........

coz, 我玩不起,我在逃避,我不能面对,我只能跑。。。

我放不下,我不想放...

不是的话,我...................

sunseto

yea, sunset again, im sunset chaser.... ;)

since today the weather is darn blardy hot, i plan to go to check out today sunset, i hope it is good...

BUT!!

crap, not really that nice, too much cloud, i cant get big round sun....sad~
and i didnt stay until the sunset end as i want to go swimming...
when i swim, i realise the sunset getting red and orange and super awesomeness....daaamnn!!
regret again....



sunseto for the day... ;)
wait next day i put up the photo of tonight full moon...

-done-

Saturday, April 16, 2011

drinks, clubs...

i dont drink that frequent, but now i do....

i dont club that frequent, but now i do....


last year, i club not more than 5 times a year...yes seriously...
drink, only with parent or family or with japs fren...
if with japs fren, for that case, i will drunk, and only at home lah...

now, this year, i club more than 5 times already, and haven reach a year...
hmmm, i do hope, i do want someone....(who?) can slow down a lil....like last time...

maison... this bunch, mad....
i kacau a lil, den i cabut...nasib im not the bulleye (aim)

movida, ladies night...
hmm not many chicks tho, but i enjoy more of myself and with frens...
nicest beer ever, hoegaarden, but expensive supplied by them...
i get before 10.30pm, so buy 1 free 1 for rm40+ so 1 for rm21something...so okay lah...

i found a place supply hoegaarden, not a pint, is a glass for rm14.75...fuh cheap shit....so happy enjoy it...wahaha 
too bad, u need member to  enter there, and price also for member...
next if i go, either i order liquor or if is beer, that for sure hoegaarden only...
now stout, i tried connor's....kinda nice...


rosemount...
enjoyed at machap umboo with my uncles, okaay lah...
as got 1 night i went machap and bring this and another left over bombay....
bombay was finish but didnt open this....
next day forgotten bring back home, then another night went up again go hav dinner with 2nd, 3rd, 5th and 6th uncle at machap umboo....2nd and 6th uncle is from aussie, they know which is the one...(for alcohols...)LOL

dang, my 2nd uncle and the aunty present me this....so happy.... =P


im a drinker?? no lah, not really also....
just like to enjoy them, got 1 time, sudden thought in my mind, how nice if my home have a small bar, and it have fresh draught of beers....syok~
of coz good beers lah, i cant stand beers like carlsberg....geli~
last time dont drink beer, now can accept d...
oh, especially good beer lah.... hehe
got 1 time, coz of 1 thing, i drunked myself at home, i cant even walk, and vomit inside toilet...
next day went class, sit there stood there termenung, head spinnin around, stomach feel gonna 'overflow'....
yeala, take liquor to, xiao chou and tao bi....
ya ya ya, haih, i dont want to face it...can or not?? i just dont want...

done, i dont want to say it d...

shisha, look out point...

shisha shisha, bad bad bad...but nice...
hmm u ppl will say, why josh take shisha, anyway i just try...i doesnt really like it but now i does feel wana try again, erm not for the sake of wanting....
no idea what is it...



look out point, nice place, very nice night scenery kuala lumpur city, too bad i didnt brought my cam...
that time went up with friends, then shisha there and playing cards....
pheww nasib baik never lose any money as i dont like to gamble....

oppss, i dont gamble and smoke (shisha)...now i do...
weird huh?? now i does something i dont usual do....
so what do that mean??


why i do and what do that mean??????????

Friday, April 15, 2011

hate??

is it now feel like hating??

hate??

i oso dono what i feel of....

inside me, kucar kacir, 乱!

真的是不明白,不清楚,不了解,不懂不懂不懂!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

IRRESPONSIBLE...

IRRESPONSIBLE....

Monday, March 28, 2011

.......

say, waatt upppppp.....

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

i need a doctor......




[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life


[Eminem]
I told the World one day I would pay it back
say it on tape, and lay it, record it
so that one day I could play it back
but I don’t even know if I believe it when I’m saying that
ya’ll starting to creep in, everyday its so grey and black
hope, I just need a ray of that
cause no one see’s my vision when I play it for ‘em
they just say its wack
they don’t know what dope is
and I don’t know if I was awake or asleep
when I wrote this,
all I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest
you picked me up, breathing life in me
I owe my life to you
before the life of me, I don’t see why you don’t see like I do
but it just dawned on me you lost a son
see this light in you, it’s dark.
let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you
I don’t think you realize what you mean to me
not the slightest clue
cause me and you were like a crew
I was like your sidekick
you gon either wanna fight me when I get off this f-cking mic
or you gon hug me
but I’m not an option, there’s nothing else I can do cause…

[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle
you come to me with ideas
you say there just pieces so I’m puzzled
cause the shit i hear is crazy
but your either getting lazy or you don’t believe in you no more
seems like your own opinions, not one you can form
cant make a decision you keep questioning yourself
second guessing and its almost like your begging for my help
like I’m your leader
your supposed to f-cking be my mentor
I can endure no more,
I demand you remember who you are
it was YOU, who believed in me
when everyone was telling you don’t sign me
everyone at the f-cking label, lets tell the truth
you risked your career for me
I know it as well as you
nobody wanted to f-ck with the white boy
Dre, I’m crying in this booth
you saved my life, now maybe its my turn to save yours
but I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more
but I aint giving up faith and you aint giving up on me
get up Dre, I’m dying, I need you, come back for f-ck’s sake
[Chorus - Skylar Grey]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life
bring me back to life
bring me back to life
(I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life)
[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
but I still remember the shit like it was just yesterday though
you walked in, yellow jump suit
whole room, cracked jokes
once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
went through friends, some of them I put on
but they just left, they said they was riding to the death
but where the f-ck are they now
now that I need them, I dont see none of them
all I see is Slim
f-ck all you fair-weather friends
all I need is him
f-cking backstabbers
when the chips were down you just laughed at us
now you bout to feel the f-cking wrath of aftermath, faggots
you gon see us in our lab jackets and ask us where the f-ck we been?
you can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
little crack a jack beat making wack math,
backwards producers, I’m back bastards
one more CD and then I’m packing up my bags and as I’m leaving
I’ll guarantee they scream Dre don’t leave us like that man cause…

[Chorus]
Im about to lose my mind
you’ve been gone for so long
I’m running out of time
I need a doctor
call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
to bring me back to life

now, i keep playing this song....

the only sentence in my head is, "im about to lose my mind, you've been gone for so long, im running out of time, i need a doctor, call me a doctor, i need a doctor....doctor, to bring me back to LIFE.....

as now im drinking....and drunk d.... ;)

SUEDE !!

yeaaaappp, u hear me, is mah suuuueeeedddeeee....

at last i got my suuueeeddeeeee...ssssss....
TWO PAIR.....

last time i wana get suede, then changed mind wana get highcut suede, the Puma First Round...
but waaatt, out of stock and they restock for 3times.... yea THREE TIMES!!

 cyan purple magic and purple magic white... ;)

 when i saw, i had my eye on the purple ones, then look look, they have orange, green and erm this cyan colour....

 i test wear the purple, i ask for size 8 but too hell tight....
then i ask the girl get me a 9....

 while waitin, i take this cyan suede, then i ask my fren, eh chun boh....
i know the colour is damn stricking lah, but is DOPE....

 last last, i get both lar....coz have discount, if not i pay more if i buy only 1....LOL

and thats the last day for discount, also only for digi user....yeeeeezzaahhh~
mad, i call my mom, kena her diu i bought two....LOL


now, i want ask for soccer shoe, kena mom scold again, said i get two pair shoe stil tak cukup and now want soccer shoe....mad, waste money...sai lui....
yea, im the one want to buy this and that although didnt buy....

soccer shoe not for soccer, but hehe, for paintball purpose lar....
but then, i still will wear my old Puma GV Tournament, even i myself repaint it...then it look newer...wahaha
this two pair Puma Suede, i must take care em both properly, canot get dirty, after wear em, wash the bottom den put in the box.... =P

sayang my suede....

sunseto


;) out from the balcony...

Friday, March 18, 2011

S30 love

oh yea 1 of my old school love....
the japanese army is the dopest of all...hahaha


henry kosasih's sorcery NA1 NSX

hmmm, just wana share...

this red hot awesome Honda NSX, super dope, dopest of all...
so cool, the sorcery kits, widebody, ricer's carbon wing at the rear and big ass wheel...
and OH, LOWERED.....TYYTTEE yooo...

if u see this red hot chick at your rear.......

 low low low...

 this current my dekstop wallpaper....
superb ass rear...





carrrbbooonnnn headlight weeyyy...

 you just cant leave your eye on her....
you wont bored keep starting her at every angle...









 honda? RED!! ;)

done, this pic is the last....
most awesome angle of all....hehe
wide wing, wide ass and is RED.....

pics from Mayday Garage, heres the link to the thread and video



ps...i love her....i mean the car....