Tuesday, November 30, 2010

unstable and uneasy...

every day, every minutes, every single second......

since my semester start and before semester start, everything seems to be not settle down peacefully, im getting hella of stress, tonnes of poops...

now is the 6th month, no improments, still the same, or maybe is going worst day by day...truely, im sick of it getting over me, felt dying, hard to breath, not focusing, not concentrate everything in every day life......

but im hearing a voice, a voice calling....from far...............

hheeeyyyyy~~.....josh, heyyy~.... josh, wake up josh.....pls come back, josh~......


but im deep inside a very dark, hollow place......
total clueless what im doing, what im heading of......


the stress, the pressure still not going away, everyday im thinking thinking thinking...
brain stuffed up with many many stuff that bothering me, the doubts that inside making me living in life with confuse and blurr...

sigh pls man, pls im begging, if is helpless, im begging, im sicken of all this things...
i have no more energy to stood up there, really no more energy try to be strong....either in mentally or physically......



sigh, PLEASE!!

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