Tuesday, November 30, 2010

unstable and uneasy...

every day, every minutes, every single second......

since my semester start and before semester start, everything seems to be not settle down peacefully, im getting hella of stress, tonnes of poops...

now is the 6th month, no improments, still the same, or maybe is going worst day by day...truely, im sick of it getting over me, felt dying, hard to breath, not focusing, not concentrate everything in every day life......

but im hearing a voice, a voice calling....from far...............

hheeeyyyyy~~.....josh, heyyy~.... josh, wake up josh.....pls come back, josh~......


but im deep inside a very dark, hollow place......
total clueless what im doing, what im heading of......


the stress, the pressure still not going away, everyday im thinking thinking thinking...
brain stuffed up with many many stuff that bothering me, the doubts that inside making me living in life with confuse and blurr...

sigh pls man, pls im begging, if is helpless, im begging, im sicken of all this things...
i have no more energy to stood up there, really no more energy try to be strong....either in mentally or physically......



sigh, PLEASE!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

HATE november

i just wana say, I HATE NOVEMBER !!

i dono but shit, i just hate it so much already...

everyday i wake up, only that thing kept on bugging me, make my every day so confuse after is happened...

so i wana say, I HATE NOVEMBER and the day itself, when the day?? mai they...



haiihh, fucking lifeless!!
i just wana lay down my head, close my eye...

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Seafood Day



yes, is seafood daaaayyy, which is on friday at Renaissance Melaka Hotel !!











oysters oysters oysters, mussels mussels mussels, fresh half cooked prawn...
the oysters are the main thing that me and my bro wanted to go for, others, errr not so...
after buffet, back home, use comp, then stomach spinnin, go to toilet, and settle...LOL yea again...


hmm very basi update, but nevertheless is update...
and happy basi birthday to me... ;)

lets see i wana post it or not...............

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

cheese toast again, with the bacon...

wrong way doin with the bacon, thought bacon was thin enough can bake in the oven...
but then, is a no no... :(
nevermind i ate it raaawwwww...haha



zzzzz, middle of night and so damn hungry, need to wait the bacan defroze... ~.~


mean time waiting, heating up the oven and ready the stuff i wana make...
some tomato, the jap mayoneise im using and DOUBLE cheeseeee....
aiyo just cheddar cheese nia...tak syokk pun...


sprinkle some peepaahhh on top...
then mix the mayo and tomato, then spread it all over the bread...


okaayy, putting the cheese and bacon on top...
put it inside and bake it for erm few minutes...

until it become golden in colour...i like this kind of colour...
niceeee, damnn im super hungry now


but then, cheese ham is the best combination...
hmm next time wana try add some shredded cheese...
and i got a new plan trying to toast something...muehehe

i luuuurrvveee my Dye i4

yeaa, im getting crazy of paintballs...darn crazy with this sport, never been that itchy-ness and madness...

GILA!!

once i played, i already decide that goin to be a paintballer and goin to get myself a facemask...
time to time, survey here and there, asking those experienced, go online surveying around...

after all just last two week, decided to get this liquid tanned DYE i4....
coolest facemask ever, coolest and most nicest looks...
i got it erm last two week i think...


dye invision...the 'i' stand for invision...i4...
woot woot open box time is the greatest...awesome feel...

taaaadaaaaa, liquid tanned...
super lovin this mask.....yiiiiiii yooooo i luuurrveee my mask...
straight away wear it...haha

the foam at inside, it hold and support ur face...
totally different wearing those rental mask...
yep of coz la, big difference with the price lagi leh....

but then others proto axis mask, i dono how for others lah...
this one is super comfy, gurantee 100% for this...


oh my, soooooo cool, cantik nyeeeeeee.....
damn really kena racun d, so damn liking the Dye products...

even survey their e-marker, the DM series and another....
shit shit...but then need a very very very very long time to get marker...so haiz dont even think about it as i didnt work also...

okeh, start  camwhoring with it...
deng 1 shot, front shot...

 side shot...


3rd shot, with snowcap on...
coz this mask didnt protect the head area...


4th...

even i wore this snowcap on during game, kena two times at head, darn ass pain...
last saturday have game and til this monday still feeling the swollen at my fore head and another is at my side head....
today tuesday feel much better d....

only my left elbow is the most critical...bleeding woooo...hahaha
this game, NO PAIN NO FUN... ;)
like this baru syokk ma...