Friday, July 9, 2010

buat bodoh...

buat baik tak dikenang, buat salah dikenang selalu...

from now on, better i become a stingy person, cheapskate and whatever shit wana describe as long is bad......anyway ppl who know they know that i say this from very last time already...

why?? is because erm...dono i wana say this or not, if i say this others saying i say good of myself, bodek own balls, make ownself syok sendiri...whatever lah...wana say what i also doesnt mind anymore also...

is because im good, im good hearted and stupid, everytime help ppl that is either i know or dont know they are good or bad...if i share something good info, they will say "cibai la sial budak ni, kalau pandai lah then ok lar, tapi buat pandai lagi......"
wtf, own friend also say like this...nvm...nevermind man...
but if someone or anyone say this to you, how you feel when u trying to help or share??

thats wat i said, did something good can never have appreciate...
whatever info, keep it to urself...yes i meant it, better is myself...whatever i know, ppl ask i just say i dono sorry i cant help you...
i will help only for those i feel want to......

im saying about this coz i wana let it out from inside of me, already few month i can feel inside of me very heavy feeling like...heavy heavy, moody...now even worst...
now i just felt like a stone stuck in my air vassels and i cant breath well, a fist straight to my heart and is still there or a tumor in my heart....if is a cancer tumor let it be lah......

total unable to feel myself anymore...pathetic, sad of myself...
wat i did, is zero...
wat im serious to, i really really very serious and able to remember...although im a forgetful person, can say i hav short term memory lost...yea something like that...

ONCE im SERIOUS, just better dont joke with me, i will treat EVERYTHING is SERIOUS and i really WILL DO IT....WITH NO REGRETS...i tell this now im really seriously saying bout this...
although im gila gila and not serious for most of time...dont force me when i get serious, even i will kill a person on that time.....
if did something will be regretted but i wont...
im a person that with no simpathy...no perikemanusiaan...not a human...is cold hearted



with no regrets......


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