Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Sigh~...BAD luck,BAD year,BAD months,BAD weeks,BAD days.....T.T

yea bad bad bad...everything bad...im tired of my life...im farked of my life....life suxx yea....kazu..yea life suxx....lol

i hav a damn weeks....1st day 6am get to bed...2nd day 3something...3rd day 3somthing also but see the clock 4.15am still cant sleep....and all following days also...i cant sleep all the night well...didnt felt wana sleep too...dissapointed,sad,feel wana cry like a girl but cant,felt dying...hope to....haiz...

ok on 3rd nov...my fren bday...we did for him a barbeque nite for him....and then the dato ready two red wine and a blueberry champagne...the red wine one from chile and france...the chile is too hard to drink...lousy taste...wat to do...next time wana buy larr...france not dat ok but better then the chile...wow we have a happy night...only on that day i felt that is me...laughing all the day...enjoying all the day...miss our kok liu...after that we at karaoke room in chicken house...then sing some songs...i sang jay-yi lu xiang bei and lang man shou ji...then after dat take the cake...blueberry cheese cake from jeremy gf...so sweet...haiz jealous...T.T but i happy for him...and jeremy blow the candel and again they play him again...nvm...then i become the bartender...serve the red wine...hehe ohh champagne first then red wine...me bottom ups with ah kok then bottoms up with dato and our bday boy jeremy...dats fun...then we go back home....

when wana coming out from chicken home taman me was behind kok liu...muehehe play lorr...after come out junction...he wana pass the little turtle kelisa by hui kit...after some while and i tailgate him all the way then overtake and pass hui kit and i also follow....damn kok liu pass jeremy and his gf....and another kembara infront...but i decide not to pass...wana play with jeremy and his gf...wira and myvi...muehehe...then tailgate jeremy gf...hui wen...they noe me...wahaha...then she increase abit of speed then i use OD...3rd gear to tailgate....when after the corner then at infront station 3 malacca raya...she overtake jeremy and i also follow and tailgate her...damn she was really fast girl mann...after corner she change to left lane and let me pass but jeremy try to keep up with me...sorry bro u wont...muahaha!!then i stop at the malacca raya before bridge traffic light...damn both of them take shortcut and infront got police...they really good luck the police malas nak layan....after green i floor it...manage see them after bridge then play play again...wow so nice BBQ nite and little "racing" nite....lol

when got back home just before 12am...sien tot can stay late nite...nvm and after bath...sit infront comp again...til late nite...and now also the same everynight of this holiday very late just go in bed....my mind just empty but only she in my mind...even when sleep...i dream of her every night...haiz...felt wana cry now...not only a dream but alot of dreams...dreamssssss....ok...

and jOsh no more....soulless jOsh is here again...really bad luck and have the most fucked bad year....so many bad thing happen in this year...i feel wana die!!argh...tired living in this life...but dying is not a prob solving...so i wont die...just felt dying...the darkness is here again...around me is just look dark...the "light" seems faded away...the "light" gone more far far away till cant be see....sigh...

and thats why i get my bboy name...bboy soulless...and got other meaning...erm lazy wana explain...sienn...

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